Pete Davidson pens personal message about suicide, mental health in the aftermath of Ariana Grande split

Pete Davidson is standing up for himself after enduring months of public criticism before, during and after his relationship with Ariana Grande.

The "Saturday Night Live" comedian, 25, posted a lengthy personal message on Instagram Monday addressing the onslaught of commentary he's heard both online and in-person.

"I've kept my mouth shut. Never mentioned any names, never said a word about anyone or anything," Davidson said. "I'm trying to understand how when something happens to a guy the whole entire world just trashes him without any facts or frame of reference."

Davidson noted that he's spoken openly about borderline personality disorder and being suicidal "in the hopes that it will bring awareness and help kids like myself who don't want to be on this earth."

"I just want you guys to know. No matter how hard the internet or anyone tries to make me kill myself. I won't," he said.

The note comes three days after ex-fiancée Grande released a music video for "Thank U, Next," during which she identifies Davidson by name as she journals about him in a "Burn Book."

In the video, Grande pastes a photo of herself and Davidson into the book. Davidson's face is covered with stickers, but his name is clearly written on the page.

The ex-couple got engaged in June 2018, less than a month after reports emerged about their budding relationship. After a whirlwind and publicity-heavy few months -- they individually discussed the romance during appearances on the "Tonight Show," "Late Night," "The Howard Stern Show," and, of course, "SNL" -- they called off the engagement in October.

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LOS ANGELES, CA - AUGUST 25: Pete Davidson and Ariana Grande onstage at American Express and Ariana Grande present 'The Sweetener Sessions' at Ace Hotel on August 25, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for American Express)
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NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 25: Ariana Grande and Pete Davidson seen out and about in Manhattan on June 25, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Robert Kamau/GC Images)
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NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 20: Ariana Grande and Pete Davidson on June 20, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Robert Kamau/GC Images)
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NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 20: Pete Davidson and Ariana Grande attends the 2018 MTV Video Music Awards at Radio City Music Hall on August 20, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Nicholas Hunt/Getty Images for MTV)
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NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 29: Pete Davidson and Ariana Grande seen in Manhattan on June 29, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Robert Kamau/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 20: Pete Davidson (C) and Ariana Grande (R) attend the 2018 MTV Video Music Awards at Radio City Music Hall on August 20, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic)
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Former US President Bill Clinton takes a picture with singer Ariana Grande and her fiancee Pete Davidson at Aretha Franklin's funeral at Greater Grace Temple on August 31, 2018 in Detroit, Michigan. (Photo by Angela Weiss / AFP) (Photo credit should read ANGELA WEISS/AFP/Getty Images)
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The bullying, Davidson said, has in fact been going on for nine months, preceding his relationship with Grande. He made headlines early in the year after posting and deleting Instagram Stories about his mental health, including some directed at then-girlfriend Cazzie David.

At the time, he wrote, "I'm really sad and in intense pain. Nobody should have to live like this."

David and Davidson dated for two years before splitting in May 2018.

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LOS ANGELES, CA - AUGUST 27: Actor Pete Davidson and Cazzie David attend the Comedy Central Roast of Rob Lowe at Sony Studios on August 27, 2016 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - AUGUST 27: Actors Pete Davidson (L) and Cazzie David attend The Comedy Central Roast of Rob Lowe at Sony Studios on August 27, 2016 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jeffrey Mayer/WireImage)
INGLEWOOD, CA - AUGUST 27: Pete Davidson (L) Cazzie David attend the 2017 MTV Video Music Awards at The Forum on August 27, 2017 in Inglewood, California. (Photo by Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty Images)
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NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 27: Cazzie David and Pete Davidson attend the 'Curb Your Enthusiasm' Season 9 premiere after party at TAO Downtown on September 27, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Jimi Celeste/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
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BEVERLY HILLS, CA - APRIL 25: Actors Cazzie David (L) and Pete Davidson attend NRDC STAND UP! for the planet 2017 on April 25, 2017 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Michael Kovac/Getty Images for NRDC)
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