Nicole Kidman Felt 'Exposed' Making Erotic Thriller “Babygirl”: 'This Is Something You Do and Hide in Your Home Videos'

"I felt very exposed as an actor, as a woman, as a human being," said the actress

Nicole Kidman is preparing to debut a movie she put everything into.

While speaking about her movie Babygirl withVanity Fair ahead of its world premiere at the Venice Film Festival, the actress, 57, explained how the role "left me ragged."

"At some point I was like, I don’t want to be touched. I don’t want to do this anymore, but at the same time I was compelled to do it. [Director Halina Reijn] would hold me and I would hold her, because it was just very confronting to me,” she told the outlet.

“It’s like, 'Golly, I’m doing this, and it’s actually now going to be seen by the world.' That’s a very weird feeling," Kidman added. "This is something you do and hide in your home videos. It is not a thing that normally is going to be seen by the world.”

The Oscar winner stars with Harris Dickinson and Antonio Banderas in Babygirl, in which Kidman portrays a business executive who starts an affair with an intern (Dickinson) at her company. Banderas plays Kidman's character's husband.

“I felt very exposed as an actor, as a woman, as a human being,” Kidman said. “I had to go in and go out like, I need to put my protection back on. 'What have I just done? Where did I go? What did I do?' ”

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The actress told the outlet elsewhere in the interview that she still has not seen the movie and has not decided yet whether she will watch it at its premiere. "I’ve made some films that are pretty exposing, but not like this," she said.

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Babygirl comes after Kidman appeared in a comedy with a similar storyline — a woman embarking on a relationship with a younger man — in her May Netflix release A Family Affair with Zac Efron.

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After Kidman told the outlet about people who work on A24 and independent movies "sharing heart and soul" while making films, the actress appeared reluctant to explain what she took away from the experience.

“It’s personal,” she told Vanity Fair, adding of the project, “That’s vulnerable, but I’m never going to shy away from that to my dying day. I’ll place myself in a vulnerable position, and see where that takes me.”

Babygirl is in theaters Dec. 20.

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