Former Redskins running back Clinton Portis admits he had to be talked out of killing the financial advisors whom he believed cost him millions he'd saved for retirement, Portis revealed in a profile by Sports Illustrated's Brian Burnsed published Wednesday.
"It wasn't no beat up," Portis told SI. "It was kill."
The profile paints a dark picture of Portis in 2013, with him going as far as waiting in his car with a gun for one of the men whom he believes had wronged him. While he was extremely close to taking the life-changing action, he was talked out of it in the moment by a friend on the phone, who urged him to turn his car around and go visit his family.
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Former NFL player Clinton Portis
Former NFL player Clinton Portis
Miami Hurricanes running back Clinton Portis kisses the national
championship trophy after Miami won the Rose Bowl 37-14 against the
Nebraska Cornhuskers in Pasadena, January 3, 2002. REUTERS/Mike Blake
Denver Broncos running back Clinton Portis celebrates his eight-yard
touchdown run in the second quarter against the San Diego Chargers in
Denver October 6, 2002. REUTERS/Gary C. Caskey
Denver Broncos running back Clinton Portis (26) runs for a gain while
quarterback Steve Beuerlein (R) tackles Seattle Seahawks linebacker Tim
Terry (59) during the fourth quarter of their NFL game at Seahawks
stadium in Seattle, November 17, 2002. The Broncos won 31-9.
REUTERS/Anthony P. Bolante
Indianapolis Colts head coach Tony Dungy (R) shakes hands with Denver Broncos running back Clinton Portis (L) after the Colts beat the Broncos 41-10 in their Wild Card playoff game at the RCA Dome in Indianapolis, IN, January 4, 2004. REUTERS/Brent Smith JPSII
Washington Redskins running back Clinton Portis walks off the field after losing to the San Diego Chargers in Landover, Maryland November 27, 2005. The Chargers defeated the Redskins 23-17 in overtime. REUTERS/Molly Riley
Washington Redskins Clinton Portis (front) is tackled by New York Giants R.W. McQuarters in the fourth quarter during their season opening NFL football game in East Rutherford, September 4, 2008. REUTERS/Ray Stubblebine (UNITED STATES)
Washington Redskins' Jason Taylor, Clinton Portis and Cornelius Griffin run during a pregame workout prior to the start of the AFC-NFC Hall of Fame Game against the Indianapolis Colts in Canton. Ohio August 3, 2008. REUTERS/Aaron Josefczyk (UNITED STATES)
Washington Redskins running back Clinton Portis is congratulated by fans after scoring the game winning touchdown against the Philadelphia Eagles during the second half of their NFL football game in Landover, Maryland, December 21, 2008. REUTERS/Jim Young (UNITED STATES)
NASHVILLE, TN - NOVEMBER 21: Clinton Portis #26 of the Washington Redskins warms up before a game against the Tennessee Titans at LP Field on November 21, 2010 in Nashville, Tennessee. The Redskins defeated the Titans in overtime 19 to 16. (Photo by Wesley Hitt/Getty Images)
NASHVILLE, TN - NOVEMBER 21: Clinton Portis #26 of the Washington Redskins runs with the football against the Tennessee Titans at LP Field on November 21, 2010 in Nashville, Tennessee. The Redskins defeated the Titans 19-16 in overtime. (Photo by Joe Robbins/Getty Images)
TALLAHASSEE, FL - NOVEMBER 02: Miami Hurricanes Alumni Greats Alex Rodriguez, Edgerrin James and Clinton Portis pose during the game against the Florida State Seminoles at Doak Campbell Stadium on Bobby Bowden Field on November 2, 2013 in Tallahassee, Florida. 3rd ranked Florida State defeated 7th ranked Miami 41 to 14. (Photo by Don Juan Moore/Getty Images)
PASADENA, CA - JANUARY 05: Former Pro Football Player Clinton Portis attends the Los Angeles Sports & Entertainment Commission's National Championship party at The Pasadena Convention Center on January 5, 2014 in Pasadena, California. (Photo by Paul Archuleta/FilmMagic)
CENTURY CITY, CA - MAY 18: NFL Running Back Clinton Portis attends the 29th Anniversary Sports Spectacular Gala at the Hyatt Regency Century Plaza on May 18, 2014 in Century City, California. (Photo by Paul Archuleta/FilmMagic)
29 August 2015: Former Washington Redskins running back Clinton Portis broadcasts from the field at M&T Bank Stadium, in Baltimore, MD. (Photo by Mark Goldman/Icon Sportswire/Corbis via Getty Images)
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"You've already lost," his friend told him, "but the loss you would sustain [by killing someone] would be greater."
Prepared as he was to commit murder, sacrificing his freedom and his name for revenge, he never found whom he was looking for. But what if he had caught a glimpse before coming to his senses? What if their paths had crossed, there in the darkness? Portis doesn't hesitate: "We'd probably be doing this interview from prison."
Portis signed what was at the time the largest contract for a running back in NFL history in 2004 and lived a famously lavish lifestyle that included multiple cars, homes, and suits, but Portis still held some money back for his and his family's future.
Years after retirement, Portis had to file multiple lawsuits against advisors, whom he accused of leading him astray with investments that would fall apart and suck up millions of what Portis had saved for retirement. While his advisors were eventually barred from securities trading by the Financial Industry Regulatory Authority, they never saw jail time.
As the piece puts it:
The hucksters he deemed most responsible ignored his calls. None were bound for jail. Their coffers were dry; a lawsuit seemed pointless. Once his helplessness gave way to rage, Portis lusted for a confrontation. He would meet this betrayer not with pleas or demands, or even blows delivered by thick fists attached to thick forearms. Bullets, he thought, were his sole means of balancing the scale.