Woman who suffered from severe anorexia has come to accept 'my kind of beautiful'

In December 2015, Connie Inglis, from Leeds, U.K., was hospitalized and hooked up to a feeding tube to treat complications from her eating disorder. It was her third time in the hospital, and with a BMI below 13 (with “normal” BMI for women being between 18.5 and 24.9), she was considered dangerously underweight. Inglis was suffering from anorexia, even though couldn’t see it at the time.

“At the beginning of [2016] I was sectioned under the mental health act and spent six months in hospital barely existing,” Inglis documented on her Instagram account, @my_life_without_ana. “I was discharged when my weight was OK and I was ‘not a health risk’ and I completely gave up. I tried to take my life. And when that didn’t work I tried the only other thing I could think of… I joined Instagram and the recovery community.”

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Im finally seeing the light!!!! TW eating disorders 💙 💙 Firstly I want to say this is not a look how skinny I was or look how well I've done post. This is to hopefully show you that no matter how lost you are in your own head, it is possible to escape! It is possible to find happiness again!!! 💙 💙 Secondly you do not have to be this shape, size colour or gender for your struggles to matter! You are always deserving of help if you are struggling!!! 💙 💙 Last year I was sectioned under the mental health act. I was so ill I was doing everything I could think of to not take in ANYTHING. I had given up. My eating disorder had taken over and I wanted to die. So I was sectioned and forced to get better. I was put on an ng tube. I was forced to watch as the scale went up every week and I could do nothing about it. (Not that I didn't try) Last year I was a mess. 💙 💙 But the people I loved stayed by me. My best friends and my boyfriend came to see me all the time and my parents where there every day. They where there to remind me to try. So I did. For the first time in my life I realised that I loved these people more than my ed. so I fought, I fought like hell!!! 💙 💙 I'm not telling you this for sympathy or to diminish anyone's struggles, (everyone's struggle is valid!!! No matter how long it takes!!) I’ve been in this for 10 years now and I still struggle but I can see the light now. I know that the fight is worth it. I know that the scales don’t mean a thing. And I want you to know that it is possible!!!!! It is possible to get out of the darkness! No not all my problems have gone away. Yes I still have the thoughts. But I am strong enough now to resist! Keep going! You can get through this hell and I will be with you every step of the way!!! We can do this together!!!! 💙💛💜 (No questions about weight please!!) #positivebeatsperfect

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Sharing her journey on Instagram has helped Ingris get stronger — and essentially turned her into an eating disorder recovery warrior.

“I honestly didn’t expect anything, but I started to follow people in similar positions as me and I was so inspired. I saw people posting pictures of there food, challenging themselves EVERY SINGLE DAY! Getting out of bed, always trying, being real,” she said.

She followed other body positive activists on Instagram, like @nourishandeat@fallingintoselflove and @bodyposipanda — and they showed her something she had no idea even existed: happiness after an eating disorder.

“I got something from starting this account that I’d never found anywhere else… HOPE,” she stated. And after spending her entire life surrounded by images of what a woman’s body “should be,” she has finally come to accept what she calls “my kind of beautiful.”

“When I was 10 I got told I had to be thin,” she wrote in a recent post. “When I was 14, I got told I had to be fit and lean. When I was 16 I got told I had to be ‘sexy.’ When I turned 20 I got told curvy was the new thing… ‘But don’t forget it has to be the right kind of curvy!'”

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“But even though I tried for years I’ve never been ‘the right kind of beautiful’. So screw it. I’m going to be MY KIND OF BEAUTIFUL!” she concluded. “I’ll be cute. I’ll rock those little boobs. I’ll dye my hair all the colors and get the tattoos I love. I’ll wear what I want and post what I want. I’ll wear makeup or I won’t. I’ll eat what I feel like and not feel bad for it. I’ll rock my cellulite and little belly rolls.

“And even on my bad days, putting myself down for not being the ‘right’ kind of beautiful… I’ll just remind myself that I’m MY KIND OF BEAUTIFUL! And I swear, that’s all you ever need to be.”

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