Khloé Kardashian and Lamar Odom’s seven-year marriage had its fair share of ups and downs, but there is one moment in particular that the former NBA player is especially ashamed of.
In his new memoir, Darkness to Light, Odom, 39, admits that he was once so angry with Kardashian, 34, while he was high on cocaine and ecstasy that he threatened to kill her. He was apparently upset that she called his friends for help when he started hallucinating in his “man cave.”
“Khloé came down and knocked on the door. I opened it suddenly and grabbed her forcefully by the shoulders, which frightened her,” he writes. “‘What the f–k are you doing?’ I screamed, out of my mind. ‘You trying to embarrass me in front of my friends? I’ll f–king kill you! You don’t know what I’m capable of!’”
Frustrated, the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star ran upstairs and slammed the door. Later on, the basketball player asked his wife for forgiveness.
“I was embarrassed and ashamed,” he recalls. “It was a new low for our relationship and my life … the most regrettable moment in a series of regrettable moments.”
“I want Lamar to be happy with Lamar again,” Kardashian, who is now mom of 13-month-old daughter True with ex Tristan Thompson, said on her short-lived talk show, Kocktails With Khloé, in March 2016. “I want Lamar to fall in love with his life one more time.”
Darkness to Light is now available in bookstores.
Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian
Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian
ORANGE, CA - JUNE 07: Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian make a personal appearance for 'Unbreakable Bond' at Perfumania on June 7, 2012 in Orange, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JULY 22: Khloe Kardashian and Lamar Odom are seen at Los Angeles International Airport on July 22, 2012 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by GVK/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images)
ORANGE, CA - JUNE 07: Professional basketball player Lamar Odom and TV personality Khloe Kardashian make an appearance to promote their fragrance, 'Unbreakable Bond,' at Perfumania on June 7, 2012 in Orange, California. (Photo by Imeh Akpanudosen/Getty Images)
SANTA MONICA, CA - MAY 19: (L-R) TV personalities Kendall Jenner, Kylie Jenner, Khloe Kardashian, Lamar Odom and Kris Jenner attend the Cody Simpson album preview party hosted by Hallmark at Casa Del Mar on May 19, 2012 in Santa Monica, California. (Photo by David Livingston/Getty Images)
CENTURY CITY, CA - MAY 18: Basketball player Lamar Odom and TV personality Khloe Kardashian attend Voli Light Vodka Supports The 19th Annual Race To Erase MS 'Glam Rock To Erase MS' at the Hyatt Regency Century Plaza on May 18, 2012 in Century City, California. (Photo by Vivien Killilea/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 23: Lamar Odom, Khloe Kardashian and Kourtney Kardashian are seen on April 23, 2012 in New York City. (Photo by Ignat/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images)
Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian Odom dine at Sugar Factory American Brasserie at Paris Las Vegas on June 17, 2011 in Las Vegas, Nevada.
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 11: Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian attend Kanye West Yeezy Season 3 at Madison Square Garden on February 11, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Yeezy Season 3)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 11: Khloe Kardashian and Lamar Odom attend Kanye West Yeezy Season 3 at Madison Square Garden on February 11, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Yeezy Season 3)