Hilaria Baldwin is 'most likely experiencing a miscarriage': 'I don’t want to have to pretend anymore'

Ten months after welcoming her fourth child, Hilaria Baldwin revealed Thursday that she is currently pregnant with her fifth, but she is "most likely experiencing a miscarriage."

"There is so much secrecy during the first trimester," Hilaria, 35, captioned a mirror photo with her hand on her bare stomach. "This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting ... I have to pretend everything is just fine -- and it truly isn't. I don't want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand."

Hilaria went on to describe the current condition of her unborn child: "The embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn't strong, and the baby isn't growing very much. So we wait -- and this is hard," she wrote. "So much uncertainty ... but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy."

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I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies...and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it’s important to show the truth...because my job is to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I’m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine—and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn’t strong, and the baby isn’t growing very much. So we wait—and this is hard. So much uncertainty...but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family...My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies’ mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. In your comments, please be kind. I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.
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She noted that she hoped her honesty would help reduce stigma about miscarriages.

"My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly," she said, adding that she feels "a bit fragile."

Alec, 60, joked in March 2019 that while Hilaria was ready for another baby, he was "not up for the challenge," citing his age as the reason for his hesitation.

The Baldwins had not yet confirmed that they were expecting another child. On Wednesday, the night before Hilaria's announcement, both attended the FIT Awards Gala in New York.

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NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 08: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin pose backstage at the Badgley-Mischka Fashion Show during New York Fashion Week at Gallery I at Spring Studios on September 8, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gary Gershoff/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 06: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin at 2018 US Open on September 6, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jackson Lee/GC Images)
EAST HAMPTON, NY - AUGUST 11: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the 14th Annual Author's Night to benefit the East Hampton Library, on August 11, 2018 in East Hampton, New York. (Photo by Sonia Moskowitz/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 15: Hilaria Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend the 2018 Disney, ABC, Freeform Upfront on May 15, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Desiree Navarro/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 16: Hilaria Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend The New York University Tisch School Of The Arts 2018 Gala at Capitale on April 16, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 16: Hilaria Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend The New York University Tisch School Of The Arts 2018 Gala at Capitale on April 16, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images)
SANTA BARBARA, CA - JANUARY 31: (L-R) Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the 33rd annual Santa Barbara International Film Festival opening night premiere of 'The Public' at Arlington Theatre on January 31, 2018 in Santa Barbara, California. (Photo by Tibrina Hobson/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 08: (L-R) Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the opening night of 'Mean Girls' on Broadway at August Wilson Theatre on April 8, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Noam Galai/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 13: Hilaria Baldwin and husband Alec Baldwin attend Robert F. Kennedy Human Rights Hosts Annual Ripple Of Hope Awards Dinner at New York Hilton on December 13, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Gilbert Carrasquillo/FilmMagic)
Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the Elton John AIDS Foundation Commemorates Its 25th Year And Honors Founder Sir Elton John During New York Fall Gala at Cathedral of St. John the Divine on November 7, 2017 in New York City. / AFP PHOTO / ANGELA WEISS (Photo credit should read ANGELA WEISS/AFP/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 02: Hilaria Baldwin and husband, actor Alec Baldwin attend A Paley Honors Luncheon in Alec's honor at The Paley Center for Media on November 2, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Michael Loccisano/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - OCTOBER 04: Hilaria Thomas Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend the National Geographic Encounter Blue Carpet VIP preview celebration on October 4, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Gary Gershoff/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 19: Actor Alec Baldwin (L) and Hilaria Baldwin attend the New York Philharmonic 106 All-Stars: Opening Gala at David Geffen Hall on September 19, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Ben Gabbe/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - SEPTEMBER 17: Actor Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin arrive at the 69th Annual Primetime Emmy Awards at Microsoft Theater on September 17, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Axelle/Bauer-Griffin/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - SEPTEMBER 17: Alec Baldwin, Hilaria Baldwin arrives at the 69th Annual Primetime Emmy Awards at Microsoft Theater on September 17, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Steve Granitz/WireImage)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - SEPTEMBER 14: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend The Hollywood Reporter and SAG-AFTRA Inaugural Emmy Nominees Night presented by American Airlines, Breguet, and Dacor at the Waldorf Astoria Beverly Hills on September 14, 2017 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Frederick M. Brown/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 28: Hilaria Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend the 17th Annual USTA Foundation Opening Night Gala at USTA Billie Jean King National Tennis Center on August 28, 2017 in the Queens borough of New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)
EAST HAMPTON, NY - JULY 29: Actor Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend The Hamptons International Film Festival SummerDocs series screening of Trophy on July 29, 2017 in East Hampton, New York. (Photo by Lars Niki/Getty Images for Hamptons International Film Festival)
EAST HAMPTON, NEW YORK - AUGUST 11: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the Guild Hall 2017 Summer Gala Celebrating AVEDON'S AMERICA at Guild Hall on August 11, 2017 in East Hampton, New York. (Photo by Patrick McMullan/Patrick McMullan via Getty Image)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 26: Actor Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin are seen on June 26, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by VMAL/Star Max/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 25: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend 'Spike's One Night Only: Alec Baldwin' at The Apollo Theater on June 25, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by JP Yim/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 25: Alec Baldwin, Hilaria Baldwin, Carmen Gabriela Baldwin and Ireland Baldwin attend 'Spike's One Night Only: Alec Baldwin' at The Apollo Theater on June 25, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Spike)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 25: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend 'Spike's One Night Only: Alec Baldwin' at The Apollo Theater on June 25, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Nicholas Hunt/Getty Images for Spike)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 05: Actor Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the Hamptons International Film Festival 25th Anniversary Kick Off Event at 620 Loft & Garden on June 5, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Kris Connor/Getty Images for Hamptons International Film Festival )
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 24: Alec Baldwin (L) and Hilaria Baldwin attend the 2017 National Dance Institute Gala at PlayStation Theater on April 24, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Paul Zimmerman/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 03: Alec Baldwin and Hilaria Baldwin attend the Tisch School Gala 2017 at Cipriani 42nd Street on April 3, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Jared Siskin/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 03: Hilaria Baldwin and Alec Baldwin attend Tisch School Gala 2017 at Cipriani 42nd Street on April 3, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Presley Ann/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
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