Jada Pinkett Smith: 'I was extremely suicidal' after finding success

Opening up about hard times. Jada Pinkett Smith admitted on Monday, December 17, that she had suicidal thoughts shortly after making it big in Hollywood.

“I had an emotional breakdown that definitely, I feel like, affected my mental stability,” the Girls Trip star, 47, said on her Facebook Watch series, Red Table Talk. “I had gotten to L.A. and gotten a certain amount of success and realized that that wasn’t the answer … that that wasn’t what was going to make everything OK.”

“Actually, it made things worse. And I became extremely suicidal and I had a complete emotional collapse,” she continued.

The actress was around 20 years old at the time of her breakdown and remembered how she called her mother, Adrienne Banfield-Jones, “in a panic.” She explained, “It’s like when you just don’t have control over emotions, your thoughts — you feel completely and utterly out of control.”

The Gotham alum’s daughter, Willow Smith, whom she shares with actor husband Will Smith, nodded in understanding, as she had previously admitted that she struggled with self-harm in the past.

“It was after that whole ‘Whip My Hair’ thing and I had just stopped doing singing lessons and I kind was in this gray area of: ‘Who am I? Do I have a purpose? Is there anything I can do besides this?’” the 18-year-old told her mom and grandmother in May. “I was cutting myself and doing crazy things.”

Pinkett Smith has been open about her battle with depression over the years and revealed in June that there was a period when she “considered” taking her own life “often.”

“One thing I’ve learned in my life over the years is that mental health is something we should practice daily, not just when issues arise,” she wrote on Instagram at the time. “In the years I spent towards my healing, many moons ago, I realized the mind and heart can be extremely delicate without the foundation of a formidable spirit.”

If you or someone you know is in emotional distress or considering suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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Jada Pinkett Smith arrives ahead of a VIP screening of GIRLS TRIP at Event Cinemas George Street on August 30, 2017 in Sydney, Australia.
AUGUST 29, 2017: SYDNEY, NSW - (EUROPE AND AUSTRALASIA OUT) Actress Jada Pinkett Smith poses during a photo shoot in Sydney, New South Wales. (Photo by Tim Hunter/Newspix/Getty Images)
LONDON, ENGLAND - JULY 26: Jada Pinkett Smith seen at the ITV Studios on July 26, 2017 in London, England. (Photo by HGL/GC Images)
LONDON, ENGLAND - JULY 25: Jada Pinkett Smith attends a special screening of Girls Trip at the Soho Hotel on July 25, 2017 in London, England. (Photo by Ian Gavan/Getty Images for Universal Pictures)
LONDON, ENGLAND - JULY 24: Jada Pinkett Smith seen at Capital Radio Studios promoting new movie 'Girls Trip' on July 24, 2017 in London, England. (Photo by Neil Mockford/GC Images)
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NEW YORK, NY - JULY 20: Actress Jada Pinkett Smith is seen outside 'Good Morning America' on July 20, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JULY 19: Jada Pinkett Smith during Hoda Kotb Hosts A Leading Ladies Event With Jada Pinkett Smith For SiriusXM Today Show Radio at SiriusXM Studios on July 19, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Robin Marchant/Getty Images for SiriusXM)
THE TONIGHT SHOW STARRING JIMMY FALLON -- Episode 0706 -- Pictured: (l-r) Actress Jada Pinkett Smith with Host Jimmy Fallon arriving to play 'Catchphrase' on July 18, 2017 -- (Photo by: Andrew Lipovsky/NBC/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JULY 17: Actresses Jada Pinkett Smith (L) and Regina Hall visit the Build Series to discuss the movie 'Girls Trip' at Build Studio on July 17, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Michael Loccisano/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JULY 13: Actress Jada Pinkett Smith attends the premiere of 'Girls Trip' at Regal LA Live Stadium 14 on July 13, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic)
ATLANTA, GA - JULY 11: Jada Pinkett Smith attends 'Girls Trip' Atlanta Screening at SCADshow on July 11, 2017 in Atlanta, Georgia. (Photo by Prince Williams/WireImage)
NEW ORLEANS, LA - JULY 01: Jada Pinkett Smith, left, Queen Latifah from the movie Girls Trips speak during the Essence Music Festival at the Ernest N. Morial Convention Center on July 1, 2017 in New Orleans, Louisiana. (Photo by Jonathan Bachman/Getty Images for Universal)
NEW ORLEANS, LA - JUNE 30: Actress Jada Pinkett Smith at 'Girls Trip' New Orleans screening at Theatres at Canal Place on June 30, 2017 in New Orleans, Louisiana. (Photo by Paras Griffin/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 25: Actress Jada Pinkett Smith attends the 2017 BET Awards at Microsoft Theater on June 25, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 26: Jada Pinkett Smith attends the 2017 NBA Awards at Basketball City - Pier 36 - South Street on June 26, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Paul Zimmerman/WireImage)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 25: Regina Hall, Tiffany Haddish, Queen Latifah and Jada Pinkett Smith speak onstage at 2017 BET Awards at Microsoft Theater on June 25, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Frederick M. Brown/Getty Images )
LOS ANGELES, CA - MAY 25: Jada Pinkett Smith is seen at 'Jimmy Kimmel Live' on May 25, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by RB/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images)
Actress Jada Pinkett Smith poses for a portrait at Music City Convention Center on June 7, 2017 in Nashville, Tennessee. (Photo by John Shearer/Getty Images Portrait)
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