Leighton Meester calls 'Gossip Girl' not 'the healthiest environment'

Leighton Meester has some mixed feelings about her time as Blair Waldorf on Gossip Girl.   

The 32-year-old actress spoke to Porter Magazine for its upcoming issue where she details what life was like while making the teen soap. 

“I was young when I started Gossip Girl,” Meester, who was 19 when she landed the role, tells the magazine. “A lot more people were suddenly around and I was being looked at. If you don’t have the right perspective, you could definitely be confused by people being that nice to you or judging you for behavior that’s typical of a 20, 21 year old… making mistakes but having to make them very publicly.”

Though she insists she’s “not haunted” by that time in her life, Meester notes that “it’s been interesting and helpful for me to look at it and examine it as an adult and go, ‘I don’t know if it was the healthiest environment.’”

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NEW YORK - OCTOBER 27: Actress Leighton Meester arrives to the Tiffany & Co. Launch of The 2008 Blue Book Collection at The Museum of Natural History on October 27, 2005 in New York City. (Photo by Gary Gershoff/WireImage)
NEW YORK - MAY 17: Actress Leighton Meester attends the CW Network Upfront at Madison Square Garden on May 17, 2006 in New York City. (Photo by Evan Agostini/Getty Images)
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BEVERLY HILLS, CA - DECEMBER 03: Actress Leighton Meester attends the Help Group's Teddy Bear Ball at the Beverly Hilton on December 3, 2007 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Chad Buchanan/Getty Images)
NEW YORK - NOVEMBER 20: Leighton Meester attends the New York City Ballet opening night gala on November 20, 2007 in New York City. (Photo by Andrew H. Walker/Getty Images)
NEW YORK - NOVEMBER 02: Leighton Meester on the set of 'Gossip Girl' at Wollman Rink on November 2, 2007 in New York City. (Photo by James Devaney/WireImage)
(EXCLUSIVE, Premium Rates Apply) NEW YORK - OCTOBER 14: Leighton Meester wearing Jason Wu attends a cocktail party celebrating the 5th CFDA/Vogue Fashion Fund at a private residence on October 14, 2008 in New York City. (Photo by Rabbani And Solimene Photography/WireImage)
NEW YORK - OCTOBER 4: Leighton Meester at the Waldorf Astoria Hotel in New York City, New York on October 4, 2008. (Photo by Munawar Hosain/Fotos International/Getty Images) Reproduction by American tabloids is absolutely forbidden.
MIAMI BEACH, FL - DECEMBER 29: Actress Leighton Meester arrives at the opening of Klutch Nightclub on December 29, 2009 in Miami Beach, Florida. (Photo by John Parra/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK CITY, NY - DECEMBER 11: Leighton Meester attends Z100 JINGLE BALL 2009 at Madison Square Garden on December 11, 2009 in New York City. (Photo by CARRIE SHALTZ/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
NEW YORK - NOVEMBER 02: Actress Leighton Meester attends the 2009 Library Lions Benefit at the New York Public Library - A Schwartzman Building on November 2, 2009 in New York City. (Photo by George Napolitano/FilmMagic)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA- DECEMBER 14: Leighton Meester arrives at the Los Angeles Screening of 'Country Strong' at The Academy of Motion Picture Arts & Sciences on December 14, 2010 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Gregg DeGuire/FilmMagic)
Actress Leighton Meester attends the launch of the Court of Jewels recreation at Harry Winston on November 16, 2010 in New York City.
Actress Leighton Meester attends the 7th Annual CFDA/Vogue Fashion Fund Awards at Skylight SOHO on November 15, 2010 in New York City.
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 19: Actress Leighton Meester attends the 'Gossip Girl' 100 episode celebration at Cipriani Wall Street on November 19, 2011 in New York City. (Photo by Gary Gershoff/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 28: Actress Leighton Meester attends the Target + Neiman Marcus Holiday Collection launch event on November 28, 2012 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images for Target)
PARIS, FRANCE - JUNE 12: Leighton Meester attends the Salvatore Ferragamo Cruise Collection 2013 Show at Galerie Denon on June 12, 2012 in Paris, France. (Photo by Antonio de Moraes Barros Filho/WireImage)
ENCINO, CA - MARCH 18: Leighton Meester attends the Los Angeles opening of 'Like Sunday, Like Rain' at Laemmle's Town Center 5 on March 18, 2015 in Encino, California. (Photo by Tibrina Hobson/WireImage)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - JANUARY 13: Singer Leighton Meester performs on stage at The Hotel Cafe on January 13, 2015 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Paul R. Giunta/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - OCTOBER 29: Leighton Meester attends Entertainment Weekly's Popfest at The Reef on October 29, 2016 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Tibrina Hobson/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 10: Actress, Leighton Meester, attends the Naersi fashion show during New York Fashion Week: The Shows at American Museum of Natural History on September 10, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Mireya Acierto/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - AUGUST 07: Leighton Meester attends the Disney ABC Television TCA Summer Press Tour at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on August 7, 2018 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/Getty Images)
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While working 16 hours, five days a week certainly took its toll on the Single Parents star, Meester cites her youth as the main reason for her ambivalence towards the series.

“I would get there at 5 a.m. and leave at 8 p.m.; a lot of days I didn’t see the sun,” she says of the series, which ran for six seasons from 2007-2012. “Everyone has their own journey, especially in their early twenties when they’re just figuring out who they are. Because of the success of that show, I was put in a place where that journey was sped up.”

She continues, “I had to figure it out quickly and with not a completely developed mind to discern between what’s real and what’s not, who I can trust and who I can’t. I got really lucky and was able to very early find and stay friends with people who are true.”

Despite everything, Meester calls her Gossip Girl years “a very special time.” 

“I wouldn’t trade it for anything. It’s sort of a time capsule,” she says of the show, which recently celebrated its 10th anniversary. “A lot of the questions that come from it are: ‘Do you miss it?’ ‘Did you love what you wore?’ And I understand that, but – and I say this with nothing but love – it is like saying, ‘High school was an amazing time for you, do you wish you could go back?’ And the truth is, it was so special and such a unique, amazing experience, but no, I wouldn’t wanna go back to it, I was a kid!” 

Now Meester -- who has a 3-year-old daughter, Arlo, with her husband, Adam Brody -- says she "wouldn’t change anything [in the past] because I’m happy where I am now.” 

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NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 14: Adam Brody and Leighton Meester attend The Cinema Society with The Hollywood Reporter & Samsung Galaxy S III host a screening of 'The Oranges' After Party at Jimmy's at James Hotel on September 14, 2012 in New York City. (Photo by Andrew H. Walker/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 08: Adam Brody and Leighton Meester attend the 68th Annual Tony Awards at Radio City Music Hall on June 8, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Tony Awards Productions)
LOS ANGELES, CA - AUGUST 23: Adam Brody and Leighton Meester attend the after party for the premiere pf Crackle's 'Startup' on August 23, 2016 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Todd Williamson/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 08: Leighton Meester (L) and husband Adam Brody attend the American Theatre Wing's 68th Annual Tony Awards at Radio City Music Hall on June 8, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by D Dipasupil/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 27: Leighton Meester and Adam Brody volunteer at Feeding America's Summer Hunger Awareness event At Para Los Ninos in Los Angeles on June 27, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Araya Diaz/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 27: Leighton Meester and Adam Brody volunteer at Feeding America's Summer Hunger Awareness event At Para Los Ninos in Los Angeles on June 27, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Araya Diaz/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 08: (EDITORS NOTE: Image has been converted to black and white.) Actos Leighton Meester (L) and Adam Brody attend the 68th Annual Tony Awards at Radio City Music Hall on June 8, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images for Tony Awards Productions)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 08: Leighton Meester and Adam Brody attend American Theatre Wing's 68th Annual Tony Awards at Radio City Music Hall on June 8, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Walter McBride/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 14: Adam Brody and Leighton Meester attend The Cinema Society with The Hollywood Reporter & Samsung Galaxy S III host a screening of 'The Oranges' After Party at Jimmy's at James Hotel on September 14, 2012 in New York City. (Photo by Andrew H. Walker/Getty Images)
NORTH HOLLYWOOD, CA - JUNE 26: Actors Adam Brody, Mia Maestro and Leighton Meester attend the premiere after party of 'Some Girl(s)' at Laemmle NoHo 7 on June 26, 2013 in North Hollywood, California. (Photo by Angela Weiss/Getty Images)
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“I think that that’s one of the many wonderful parts of not only having a child and meeting your soulmate, but also I feel really lucky career-wise – really in a place that I want to be,” she says.

Last year, ET caught up with Meester, who called Gossip Girl’s frequent filming on the Met steps “kind of iconic,” before revealing that she wouldn’t rule out returning to the role.

“I don’t really hear [talk of a revival]. . . It’s hard to say,” Meester told ET at the time. “If everyone was into it and if the timing was right... I don’t want to say, ‘No, never.’” 

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