Kendall Jenner says she was on the 'verge of a mental breakdown,' had to stop doing runway shows

Kendall Jenner is revealing why she was absent from the runways last season.

The 22-year-old model graces one of the covers of LOVE magazine's 10th-anniversary issue for autumn/winter 2018, and reveals her mental health issues recently got the best of her. 

"Last season I didn’t do any shows," she says. "Just ‘cause I was working in LA and I was like 'Oof, I can’t right now -- I’m gonna go crazy.'"  

"I was on the verge of a mental breakdown," she adds.

Jenner was primarily absent from the runways for the fall/winter 2018/19 season, skipping Paris Fashion Week, in which models Gigi Hadid and Kaia Gerber walked. However, she did make her return to the runway in June for the Versace show during Milan Men's Fashion Week, rocking a colorful printed dress and thigh-high black boots.

Kendall Jenner walks the runway at the Versace FASHION show during Milan Men's Fashion Week Spring/Summer 2019
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Jenner also tells the magazine, "I live a very extraordinary life. I wouldn't change it for the world but there are days where I wish I could walk outside and nothing would be like it is right now."

"I have such debilitating anxiety because of everything going on that I literally wake up in the middle of the night with full-on panic attacks," she said. "Where do I even start? Everything is so horrible, it’s hard to name one thing. I just think that the world needs so much love. I wish I had the power to send Cupid around the planet, as cheesy as that sounds."

In an October 2016 episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, Jenner described her anxiety.

"I wake up in the middle of the night and I can't move," she told the cameras, later telling her mother, "Everyone says I'm fine, but I don't feel fine."

But Kendall's older sister Kim Kardashian West definitely has her back. Kardashian West leapt to the model's defense on Monday after a Twitter user called Jenner a "disturbingly despicable, entitled, unsympathetic, sadistic, uncharitable and self-absorbed human being who doesn't deserve to be idolized." The comment was in response to a a report that Jenner's dog allegedly bit a child while the model was at a deli in Los Angeles on Sunday with rumored boyfriend, NBA star Ben Simmons. TMZ has since reported that police did not respond to the incident as there were no serious injuries, and Jenner remained at the scene until she confirmed the child was OK. 

"Do u know Kendall?" Kardashian West replied to the comment. "She’s the complete opposite &is the most generous,compassionate person I know! Her being standoffish is anxiety that paralyzes her which u take as rude! Only a despicable, entitled, unsympathetic, sadistic, uncharitable @self-absorbed human would write this tweet."

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NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 05: Kendall Jenner and Kourtney Kardashian are seen walking in Soho on June 5, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 04: Kendall Jenner attends the 2018 CFDA Awards at Brooklyn Museum on June 4, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Taylor Hill/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 04: Kendall Jenner arrives for the 2018 CFDA Fashion Awards at Brooklyn Museum on June 4, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Rob Kim/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 22: Kendall Jenner seen out and about in Manhattan on May 22, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Robert Kamau/GC Images)
CANNES, FRANCE - MAY 13: Model Kendall Jenner attends Fashion for Relief Cannes 2018 during the 71st annual Cannes Film Festival at Aeroport Cannes Mandelieu on May 13, 2018 in Cannes, France. (Photo by Dave Benett/FFR/Getty Images)
CANNES, FRANCE - MAY 12: Kendall Jenner attends the screening of 'Girls Of The Sun (Les Filles Du Soleil)' during the 71st annual Cannes Film Festival at Palais des Festivals on May 12, 2018 in Cannes, France. (Photo by Foc Kan/FilmMagic)
CANNES, FRANCE - MAY 12: (EDITORS NOTE: Image contains nudity.) Kendall Jenner attends the screening of 'Girls Of The Sun (Les Filles Du Soleil)' during the 71st annual Cannes Film Festival at Palais des Festivals on May 12, 2018 in Cannes, France. (Photo by Stephane Cardinale - Corbis/Corbis via Getty Images)
TOPSHOT - US model Kendall Jenner poses as she arrives on May 11, 2018 for the Chopard Party on the sidelines of the 71st Cannes film festival in Cannes, southeastern France. (Photo by Yann COATSALIOU / AFP) (Photo credit should read YANN COATSALIOU/AFP/Getty Images)
NICE, FRANCE - MAY 10: Model Kendall Jenner is seen during the 71st annual Cannes Film Festival at Nice Airport on May 10, 2018 in Nice, France. (Photo by Marc Piasecki/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 08: (L-R) Talent Manager, Jenner Communications, Kris Jenner, Model Kendall Jenner, Founder, Kylie Cosmetics Kylie Jenner, Founder, The Business of Fashion Imran Amed and Founder and CEO, KKW Kim Kardashian attends an intimate dinner hosted by The Business of Fashion to celebrate its latest special print edition 'The Age of Influence' at Peachy's/Chinese Tuxedo on May 8, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images for The Business of Fashion)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 07: Kendall Jenner attends Heavenly Bodies: Fashion & The Catholic Imagination Costume Institute Gala at Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 7, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jackson Lee/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 05: Kendall Jenner is seen in the East Village on May 5, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gotham/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Kendall Jenner seen out and about in Manhattan on May 3, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Robert Kamau/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Model Kendall Jenner attends Longchamp by Shayne Oliver preview at Longchamp Soho on May 3, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Cindy Ord/Getty Images for Longchamp)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Kendall Jenner is seen on May 03, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Nancy Rivera/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Kendall Jenner arrives to the Longchamp Opening at Longchamp Fifth Avenue on May 3, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by James Devaney/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Kendall Jenner attends the Tiffany & Co. Paper Flowers event and Believe In Dreams campaign launch on May 3, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images for Tiffany & Co.)
LA QUINTA, CA - APRIL 14: Kendall Jenner attends #REVOLVEfestival Day 1 on April 14, 2018 in La Quinta, California. (Photo by Roger Kisby/Getty Images for REVOLVE)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 03: Kendall Jenner does a photoshoot for Tiffany & Co on May 3, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gotham/GC Images)
PARIS, FRANCE - APRIL 04: Model Kendall Jenner is seen on April 4, 2018 in Paris, France. (Photo by Marc Piasecki/GC Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - MARCH 24: Kendall Jenner and Hailey Baldwin attend March For Our Lives Los Angeles on March 24, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Presley Ann/WireImage)
Kendall Jenner attends the 2018 Vanity Fair Oscar Party following the 90th Academy Awards at The Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts in Beverly Hills, California, on March 4, 2018. / AFP PHOTO / JEAN-BAPTISTE LACROIX (Photo credit should read JEAN-BAPTISTE LACROIX/AFP/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - MARCH 04: Kendall Jenner attends the 2018 Vanity Fair Oscar Party hosted by Radhika Jones at Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts on March 4, 2018 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Taylor Hill/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - FEBRUARY 18: Kendall Jenner is seen on February 18, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Hollywood To You/Star Max/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 11: Kendall Jenner on February 11, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jackson Lee/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 09: Kendall Jenner seen on the streets of Manhattan on February 09, 2018 in New York (Photo by Josiah Kamau/BuzzFoto via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 08: Kendall Jenner seen on the streets of Manhattan on February 08, 2018 in New York, NY. (Photo by Josiah Kamau/BuzzFoto via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 08: Kendall Jenner seen on the streets of Manhattan on February 8, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by James Devaney/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 08: Danielle Cathari and Kendall Jenner attend the presentation for adidas Originals by Danielle Cathari on February 8, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JANUARY 27: Model Kendall Jenner is seen in Soho on January 27, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Raymond Hall/GC Images)
NEW YORK, NY - JANUARY 26: Kendall Jenner is seen in SoHo on January 26, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gotham/GC Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 24: Model Kendall Jenner attends a basketball game between the Los Angeles Clippers and the Boston Celtics at Staples Center on January 24, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Allen Berezovsky/Getty Images)
MILAN, ITALY - JANUARY 14: Kendall Jenner walks the runway at the Dsquared2 show during Milan Men's Fashion Week Fall/Winter 2018/19 on January 14, 2018 in Milan, Italy. (Photo by Venturelli/WireImage)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - JANUARY 07: Model Kendall Jenner attends The 75th Annual Golden Globe Awards at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on January 7, 2018 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by George Pimentel/WireImage)
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