Nikki Bella says she 'ruined everyone’s fairy tale’ after calling off wedding to John Cena

Nikki Bella's wedding to John Cena is officially not happening.

During Sunday's season finale of Total Bellas on E!, the 34-year-old WWE star ended her on-again, off-again engagement to the 41-year-old actor.

"I've ruined everyone's fairy tale. My heart hurts so bad," Nikki said of her cancelled wedding. “... Even though I was going through depression, I think when you have a relationship in the public eye, it’s like you don’t want to let your fans down."

Nikki continued, "Everyone’s fairy tale was John and I getting married, Superman and Wonder Woman finally found each other. This is everyone's happily ever after. So you just force yourself to believe it, too, even if you start to feel something different." 

While Nikki is ready to start finding herself, she does still have hope that she and John could get back together in the future.

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Cast member John Cena (L) and Nikki Bella attend the premiere of "Blockers" in Los Angeles, California, U.S. April 3, 2018. REUTERS/Phil McCarten
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WESTWOOD, CA - APRIL 03: John Cena, Nikki Bella and Ike Barinholtz arrive for the Premiere Of Universal Pictures' 'Blockers' held at Regency Village Theatre on April 3, 2018 in Westwood, California. (Photo by Albert L. Ortega/Getty Images)
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"I feel like I’m starting the journey of finding me again… and when I heal myself and find whats wrong with me, he will be there. And if not, it wasn’t meant to be,” she concluded.

The couple called off their engagement for the first time back in April, but have been rumored to have reconciled since. After a source told ET that those rumors were false, Nikki confirmed that the she and John were "just friends." 

“He is not only my best friend, but he truly is one of the best people I have ever met, and he has patience with me and he has really taught me a lot over the last few months, and I think one of those things is an inner strength that I thought I had, but didn't realize how strong I had it,” she said in a vlog post earlier this month. “... Hopefully one day we will get back together. And if we don't, we just want each other to be very, very happy.” 

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