Pamela Anderson had an extremely emotional reaction to Playboy founder Hugh Hefner's death on Wednesday night.
In a black-and-white selfie video that Anderson shared on Instagram, the only words that she's able to utter are "goodbye Hef." The 50-year-old Playboy cover star wipes away tears in the video as mascara runs down her face. Though she wasn't able to say much out loud, she did pour her heart out in the post's lengthy caption.
"I have so many thoughts," she began. "I have no brain n right now to edit I am me because of you. You taught me everything important about freedom and respect. Outside of my family You were the most important person in my life."
"You gave me life," Anderson continued. "People tell me all the time that I was your favorite."
The 14-time Playboy cover model described the "deep shock" that she was feeling after news broke that Hefner had died at the Playboy Mansion of natural causes at the age of 91, saying that his "back hurt [him] so much."
"Last time I saw you You were using a walker," she remembered. "You didn't want me to see. You couldn't hear. You had a piece of paper in your pocket you showed me - with my name Pamela with a heart around it."
Hugh Hefner through the years
Hugh Hefner through the years
LOS ANGELES - JUNE 26,1957: Hugh Hefner with Joan Bradshaw at a Play Boy Party in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Earl Leaf/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES - JUNE 26: Playboy Magazine founder and publisher Hugh Hefner attends a party in his honor with actresses Joan Bradshaw (right) and Susanne Sidney on June 26, 1957 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Earl Leaf/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES - JUNE 26,1957: Hugh Hefner and guest at a Play Boy Party in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Earl Leaf/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES - JUNE 26,1957: Hugh Hefner with Joan Bradshaw and girls at a Play Boy Party in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Earl Leaf/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
American pornographer Hugh Hefner and murdered Playboy PLaymate Dorothy Stratten (1960 - 1980), 1980. She holds a plaque naming her 1980 Playmate of the Year. (Photo By Julian Wasser/Online USA Inc./Getty Images)
American publisher Hugh Hefner smokes a pipe and holds a pamphlet while balancing a briefcase on his knee, c. 1960. (Photo by Authenticated News/Getty Images)
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(Original Caption) 1/29/1962 -New York,NY -: Hugh M. Hefner, Editor and Publisher of Playboy, is shown with Cynthia Maddox, the blond cover girl on the February issue of his magazine, arriving by TWA superjet from Chicago. They are here to attend a party given by Ella Fitzgerald at the Basin Street East in honor of winners of the Playboys jazz poll.
(Original Caption) Hugh Hefner, publisher of Playboy Magazine, shown as he appeared in court to face charges that nude photograph of Jayne Mansfield in the June issue are obscene. Hefner's attorneys asked for a continuance and his trial was set for July 9 in Municipal Court.
26th June 1966: American millionaire Hugh Hefner, founder of the Playboy empire, during a visit to Britain. (Photo by John Downing/Express/Getty Images)
Playboy editor and tycoon Hugh Hefner is greeted by a group of bunny girls from his Playboy Clubs, upon his arrival at London Airport. (Photo by Dove/Getty Images)
Heff, is in Britain to officially open his 16th Playboy Club, located in Park Lane, London. (Photo by Sunday People/Mirrorpix/Mirrorpix via Getty Images)
Hugh Hefner Boss of the Playboy Empire arrives with an entourage of Bunny Girls at London Heathrow Airport, Saturday 25th June 1966. Heff, is in Britain to officially open his 16th Playboy Club, located in Park Lane, London. (Photo by Sunday People/Mirrorpix/Mirrorpix via Getty Images)
Playboy CEO Hugh Hefner with partner model, actress and singer Barbara Benton arrive at Paris Airport. (Photo by James Andanson/Sygma via Getty Images)
(GERMANY OUT) Hefner, Hugh *09.04.1926-Verleger (Playboy), USA - mit seiner Freundin Barbara Benton waehrend eines Besuchs in Berlin- 1969 (Photo by Binder/ullstein bild via Getty Images)
Portrait taken on August 21, 1970 at Le Bourget airport shows US Playboy Magazine publisher Hugh Hefner and his girlfriend actress Barbara Benton. AFP PHOTO (Photo credit should read STRINGER/AFP/Getty Images)
UNSPECIFIED - CIRCA 1970: Photo of Hugh Hefner (Photo by Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
UNSPECIFIED - CIRCA 1970: Photo of Hugh Hefner Photo by Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images
Publisher Hugh Hefner and Actress Julie Newmar attend the Rugby Ball on October 20, 1972 in New York City, New York. (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
HUGH HEFNER -- Pictured: (l-r) Hefner's girlfriend/Singer, Barbi Benton, unknown, Playboy founder Hugh Hefner discussing promotional artwork for Barbi's 1974 debut album 'Barbi Doll'-- Photo by: Ron Tom/NBCU Photo Bank
American publisher Hugh Hefner, of Playboy Enterprises, smiles with his girlfriend, American actor and model Barbi Benton as they attend the 21st annual SHARE fund raiser for The Exceptional Children's Foundation. She wears a feathered blouse and he holds a pipe. (Photo by Frank Edwards/Getty Images)
Hugh Hefner and bunnies during 5th Annual International B Bunny of the Year Pageant at The Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills, California, United States. (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
Hugh Hefner and Sondra Theodore attend Hugh Hefner's Special 25th Anniversary Party on January 10, 1978 at New York New York Disco in New York City. (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
Hugh Hefner and Sondra Theodore attend 25th Anniversary Party for Playboy Magazine on January 11, 1979 at Tavern on the Green in New York City. (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - CIRCA 1979: Hugh Hefner and Sondra Theodore circa 1979 in New York City. (Photo by Images Press/IMAGES/Getty Images)
375250 01: Mid-1980's Playboy Mansion. Hugh Hefner and girlfriend Carrie Leigh at the Playboy Mansion.
Sondra Theodore and Hugh Hefner (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
circa 1980: 'Playboy' magazine founder and publisher Hugh Hefner with 1980 Playboy Playmate of the Year, Canadian model and actor Dorothy Stratten. Stratten wears a strapless top and flowers in her hair. (Photo by Frank Edwards/Fotos International/Getty Images)
THE TOMORROW SHOW -- Pictured: (l-r) Playboy founder/publisher Hugh Hefner, journalist/Playboy covergirl Rita Jenrette at the Playboy Mansion -- Photo by: Paul Drinkwater/NBCU Photo Bank
Hugh Hefner and Carrie Lee attend the opening party for 'Private Lives' on October 13, 1983 at Madame Wu's Restaurant in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Ron Galella/WireImage)
Hugh Hefner and playboy bunnies are photographed October 29, 1985 at the re-opening of the Playboy Club in New York City. (Photo by Yvonne Hemsey/Getty Images)
Hugh Hefner and Carrie Lee attends the premiere of 'Beverly Hills Cop II' on May 19, 1987 at Mann Chinese Theater in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Ron Galella, Ltd./WireImage)
LOS ANGLES, CA - 1989: Playboy Magazine founder and publisher, Hugh Hefner, announces his engagement to Playmate of the Year Kimberly Conrad at a 1989 Los Angeles, California, press conference. Hefner and Conrad divorced in 2003. (Photo by George Rose/Getty Images)
368600 12: Hugh Hefner and friends, Jessica Paisley, left, Mandy Bentley and Sandy Bentley arrive for the 10th Anniversary celebration of the hit television show, 'Baywatch' on May 2, 2000 in Santa Monica, CA. The show has aired nearly 200 episodes since it first premiered in 1990. (Photo by Joe Thomas/Online USA)
Kimberly Conrad, Marsden Hefner, and Hugh Hefner during Christie Hefner Hosts Open House Gala for New Headquarters at Playboy Headquarters in Beverly Hills, California, United States. (Photo by Jim Smeal/WireImage)
Hugh Hefner and Kimberley Conrad in Photo Booth (Photo by Frank Trapper/Corbis via Getty Images)
Nancy Sinatra and Hugh Hefner attend Playboy Magazine Party on April 6, 1995 at the Playboy Mansion in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Ron Galella, Ltd./WireImage)
The Rembrandts, Yasmin Bleeth, Hugh Hefner & Playboy Bunnies (Photo by SGranitz/WireImage)
Hugh Hefner, wife Kimberly and their children during Premiere of 'Star Wars: Special Edition' In 1997 at Westwood in Westwood, CA, United States. (Photo by Magma Agency/WireImage)
Playmate Heather Kozar and businessman Hugh Hefner attend Playboy Announces Heather Kozar as the 1999 Playmate of the Year on April 29, 1999 at The Playboy Mansion in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Ron Galella, Ltd./WireImage)
7/17/99 Los Angeles, Ca. Hugh Hefner Dancing With Playboy Gals At The Playboy Expo '99 & Playmate Reunion Held At The Pacific Design Center. (Photo By Brad Elterman/Getty Images)
7/16/99 Beverly Hills, CA Hugh Hefner, Shannon Tweed, and Diane Hunter (1954 Playmate) at the First-Ever Playboy Expo. The expo gave a chance for fans to meet centerfolds, celebrities, Bunnies, wirters, artists, photographers, and cartoonists. Photo Brad Elterman/Online USA, Inc.
CANNES, FRANCE: Playboy magazine president Hugh Hefner (C) poses with playmates 14 May 1999 on the steps of the Palais des Festivals before the screening of their movie 'Entrapment' in selection for the 52nd Cannes Film Festival. (ELECTRONIC IMAGE) (Photo credit should read PASCAL GUYOT/AFP/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - APRIL 29: Hugh Hefner attends Playmate of the Year Press Conference on April 29, 1999 at the Playboy Mansion in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Ron Galella, Ltd./WireImage)
Brandi and Hugh Hefner during Madonna's new CD Music Party in Los Angeles, California, United States. (Photo by Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic, Inc)
Madonna, Hugh Hefner & Playboy Bunnies (Photo by Kevin Mazur/WireImage)
WEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - DECEMBER 18: Playboy founder Hugh Hefner poses with unidentified model, Shauna Sand (2nd from L) and Holly Madison (R) during Barfly 5th year anniversary party on December 18, 2002 in West Hollywood, California. (Photo by David Klein/Getty Images)
Hugh Hefner and Playboy Playmates during Ben Stiller and Christine Taylor Host a Grand Classics Screening of 'Sweet Smell of Success' with YSL at the Playboy Mansion at Playboy Mansion in Beverly Hills, California, United States. (Photo by Donato Sardella/WireImage for Harrison & Shriftman)
Hiromi Oshima, Playboy Miss June 2004, Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner, Bridget Marquardt , Kendra Wilkinson, Sara Jean Underwood, Playboy Playmate of the Year 2007 and guest (Photo by Enos Solomon/FilmMagic)
Hugh Hefner and models during Hugh Hefner Inducted Into The Erotic Museum's Hall Of Fame at The Erotic Museum in Hollywood, United States. (Photo by Laurence Cottrell/FilmMagic)
(EXCLUSIVE, Premium Rates Apply) Carmen Electra and Hugh Hefner *EXCLUSIVE COVERAGE* (Photo by Michael Bezjian/WireImage for Playboy Enterprises)
Carmen Electra, top row far left, Hugh Hefner, center, The Girls Next Door and Playmates *EXCLUSIVE COVERAGE* ***Exclusive*** (Photo by Michael Bezjian/WireImage for Playboy Enterprises)
Hugh Hefner and girlfriends during The 21st Annual American Cinematheque Award Honoring George Clooney - Arrivals at Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills, California, United States. (Photo by Jason Merritt/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - DECEMBER 16: Playboy founder Hugh Hefner attends a book signing of 'Mr. Playboy: Hugh Hefner and the American Dream' at Barnes N Noble bookstore on Tuesday December 16, 2008 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Byron Gamarro/Getty Images)
LAS VEGAS - MAY 15: (L-R) Model Hope Dworaczyk, Playboy founder Hugh Hefner and his girlfriend, December 2009 Playboy Playmate of the Month Crystal Harris, arrive at a party introducing Dworaczyk as the 2010 Playboy Playmate of the Year at the Rain Nightclub inside the Palms Casino Resort May 15, 2010 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - DECEMBER 10: Hugh Hefner and Pamela Anderson attend the Hugh Hefner book signing session at Taschen on December 10, 2009 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Riccardo S. Savi/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - DECEMBER 09: Playboy founder Hugh Hefner (L) and model Crystal Harris attend an event celebrating the expansion of Griffith Park at Lake Hollywood Park on December 9, 2010 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by David Livingston/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - OCTOBER 13: Hugh Hefner attends 'The Rum Diary' Los Angeles Premiere at LACMA on October 13, 2011 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Steve Granitz/WireImage)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - SEPTEMBER 19: Playboy Founder Hugh Hefner (C) arrives at the 2011 Ella Awards at The Beverly Hilton hotel on September 19, 2011 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Paul Archuleta/FilmMagic)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - AUGUST 07: (L-R) Hugh Hefner and Crystal Harris attend the Beverly Hills City Council and Playboy Enterprises ribbon-cutting ceremony for Beverly Hills Playboy World Headquarters on August 7, 2012 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Tibrina Hobson/WireImage)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - JUNE 15: Publisher Hugh Hefner attends a press conference at the 35th Anniversary Playboy Jazz Festival - Day 1 at the Hollywood Bowl on June 15, 2013 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Rodrigo Vaz/Getty Images)
Los Angeles, CA - OCTOBER 25: Hugh Hefner and Crystal Hefner attend Playboy Mansion's Annual Halloween Bash at The Playboy Mansion on October 25, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Charley Gallay/Getty Images for Playboy)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 16: Hugh Hefner (C) poses with Playboy Bunnies Playmate of the Year 2013 Raquel Pomplun (2nd L) and Miss December 2009 Crystal Hefner (2nd R) at Playboy's 60th Anniversary special event on January 16, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Rachel Murray/Getty Images for Playboy)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 16: Cooper Hefner (L) and Hugh Hefner pose at Playboy's 60th Anniversary special event on January 16, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Charley Gallay/Getty Images for Playboy)
LAS VEGAS, NV - FEBRUARY 20: Impersonator George Kane of Florida as Hugh Hefner presents an award during The Reel Awards 2017 at the Golden Nugget Hotel & Casino on February 20, 2017 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images)
She went on to thank Hefner for believing in her, accepting her and encouraging her to be her true self.
"You said the magazine was about a girl like me," she wrote. "That I embody the spirit you fantasized about. I was the one. You said. I can hear you say - Be brave. There are no rules. Live your life I'm proud of you. There are no mistakes. And with men - Enjoy..."
After thanking him for being "always there" for her and her sons, Anderson thanked him for his impact on society.
"Thank you for making the world a better place," she finished. "A [freer] and sexier place. You were a gentleman charming, elegant, chivalrous and so much fun. Goodbye Hef ... Your Pamela."