Mariah Carey admits to struggling with ‘low self-esteem': 'It's hard to let your guard down'


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Mariah Carey opened up in a candid interview with Page Six backstage at her Madison Square Garden show in New York City on Saturday about some of her insecurities. "I just feel like I am a regular human being and I deserve the same respect as anybody else," she confessed. "I have always had low self-esteem, and people do not recognize that."

Carey attributed some of her self-consciousness to her upbringing, saying that being biracial made her feel uncertain as to whether she "fit in."

"That is why music became such a big part of my life, because it helped me overcome those issues," she noted. "Sometimes it is hard to let your guard down."

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NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 12: Singer Mariah Carey and Nick Cannon attend MTV First: Mariah Carey's 'You're Mine (Eternal)' music video world premiere at MTV Studios on February 12, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Larry Busacca/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 18: Mariah Carey and Nick Cannon (R) arrive at the 20th Annual Screen Actors Guild Awards at the Shrine Auditorium on January 18, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Dan MacMedan/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 05: Nick Cannon (L) and Mariah Carey attend Lee Daniels' 'The Butler' New York premiere, hosted by TWC, DeLeon Tequila and Samsung Galaxy on August 5, 2013 in New York City. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Samsung)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - NOVEMBER 17: TeenNick Chairman and HALO Awards host Nick Cannon and singer Mariah Carey attend Nickelodeon's 2012 TeenNick HALO Awards at Hollywood Palladium on November 17, 2012 in Hollywood, California. The show premieres on Monday, November 19th, 8:00p.m. (ET) on Nick at Nite. (Photo by Charley Gallay/Getty Images For Nickelodeon)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 15: Mariah Carey leaves the Beacon Theater on December 15, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by James Devaney/GC Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - MARCH 14: Mariah Carey (L) and actor Jussie Smollett attend the Human Rights Campaign Los Angeles Gala 2015 at JW Marriott Los Angeles at L.A. LIVE on March 14, 2015 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason Kempin/Getty Images for Human Rights Campaign)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 03: Mariah Carey performs at the 82nd Annual Rockefeller Christmas Tree Lighting Ceremony at Rockefeller Center on December 3, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by James Devaney/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 03: Singer Mariah Carey performs at the 82nd Annual Rockefeller Center Christmas Tree Lighting on December 3, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Paul Zimmerman/WireImage)
SHANGHAI, CHINA - OCTOBER 19: Singer Mariah Carey performs live during her 2014 China Tour on October 19, 2014 in Shanghai, China. (Photo by ChinaFotoPress/ChinaFotoPress via Getty Images)
NEW YORK NY - AUGUST 26: Mariah Carey sighting on August 26, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Josiah Kamau/BuzzFoto/FilmMagic)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - JULY 23: Singer Mariah Carey and actor Dwayne Johnson attend the after party for the premiere of Paramount Pictures' 'Hercules' at the Roosevelt Hotel on July 23, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Alberto E. Rodriguez/WireImage)
CAP D'ANTIBES, FRANCE - JUNE 17: Mariah Carey performs during Clear Channel Media And Entertainment And MediaLink Dinner at Hotel du Cap-Eden-Roc on June 17, 2014 in Cap d'Antibes, France. (Photo by Tony Barson/Getty Images for Clear Channel)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 09: Singer Mariah Carey announces the launch of her Go N'Syde bottle 'Butterfly' at the Saint Regis Hotel on June 9, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Andrew H. Walker/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MAY 29: Singer Mariah Carey attends the 2014 Fresh Air Fund Honoring Our American Hero at Pier Sixty at Chelsea Piers on May 29, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Monica Schipper/FilmMagic)
Mariah Carey performs during the World Music Awards at Monte Carlo Sporting Club, on May 27, 2014 in Monaco.  (Photo credit: VALERY HACHE/AFP/Getty Images)
TODAY -- Pictured: Mariah Carey appears on NBC News' 'Today' show -- (Photo by: Peter Kramer/NBC/NBC NewsWire via Getty Images)
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The GRAMMY winner added that she often second guesses the people around her. "I do think to myself, 'Did they mean this? Or do they not really mean it?'" she admitted. "And that is with everybody -- it is not just with three people or just one."

Her humble beginnings, however, helped shape the 47-year-old singer into who she is today -- and Carey insisted that she hasn't forgotten her roots.

"I remember it not being easy getting a record deal," she recalled. "Making demos in the middle of the night, sleeping on the floor in the studio, being broke with no food. My go-to meal was [Newman's Own] sauce. Me and my friend would split the pasta and sauce for, like, a week. Or it was, like, a bagel and iced tea. ...The guy would give it to me at the deli for free."

Times have certainly changed for Carey, who is currently on the road with Lionel Richie as his special guests for the All the Hits tour, and has several projects in the works.

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"I am working on a new fragrance. I don't have a name, but it is with Elizabeth Arden," she dished. "It smells like success."

Carey continued, "There is also a secret song I have been working on."

RELATED: See Mariah Carey's recent topless photo shoot:

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Mariah Carey and Jennifer Lopez for Paper magazine's Las Vegas issue
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