'Big Bang Theory' star Melissa Rauch announces pregnancy, candidly discusses painful past miscarriage


Melissa Rauch is expressing emotions only those that share her tragic experience can truly know.

The Big Bang Theory star revealed that she and husband Winston are expecting their first child in a touching piece in Glamour on Tuesday, where she candidly navigates the inner conflict of knowing that her previous pregnancy ended in miscarriage.

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"Here is the only statement regarding my pregnancy that doesn't make me feel like a complete fraud," the 37-year-old actress writes. "'Melissa is expecting her first child. She is extremely overjoyed, but if she's being honest, due to the fact that she had a miscarriage the last time she was pregnant, she's pretty much terrified at the moment that it will happen again. She feels weird even announcing this at all, and would rather wait until her child heads off to college to tell anyone, but she figures she should probably share this news before someone sees her waddling around with her mid-section protruding and announces it first.'"

During the thoughtful essay, Rauch also explains how trauma that women like her go through is exacerbated by the fact that the subject is not at all easy to talk about.

"The miscarriage I experienced was one of the most profound sorrows I have ever felt in my life," she shares. "What I realized ... is that because this kind of loss is not openly talked about nearly as much as it should be, there really is no template for how to process these emotions."

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Additionally, she notes that the guilt she experienced is built right into the word itself.

"'Miscarriage' by the way, deserves to be ranked as one of the worst, most blame-inducing medical terms ever," she says. "To me, it immediately conjures up an implication that it was the woman's fault, like she somehow 'mishandled the carrying of this baby.' F that so hard, right in its patriarchal nut-sack."

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LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 29: Actress Melissa Rauch arrives at the 23rd Annual Screen Actors Guild Awards at The Shrine Expo Hall on January 29, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Dan MacMedan/WireImage)
LOS ANGELES - MARCH 28: 'The Separation Agitation' -- Pictured: Bernadette (Melissa Rauch) and Howard Wolowitz (Simon Helberg). Coverage of the CBS series THE BIG BANG THEORY, scheduled to air on the CBS Television Network. (Photo by Sonja Flemming/CBS via Getty Images)
The Cast of The Big Bang Theory (actors Kaley Cuoco, Kunal Nayyar, Melissa Rauch, Simon Helberg, Mayim Bialik, Johnny Galecki) pose for a portrait as the winners of 'Favorite Network TV Comedy' at the 2017 People's Choice Awards at the Microsoft Theater on January 18, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Smallz & Raskind/Getty Images Portrait) FAVORITE NETWORK TV COMEDY
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 18: Actress Melissa Rauch poses in the press room during the 2017 People's Choice Awards at Microsoft Theater on January 18, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Allen Berezovsky/Getty Images for Fashion Media)
LOS ANGELES - FEBRUARY 7: 'The Comic-Con Conundrum' -- Pictured: Bernadette (Melissa Rauch) and Howard Wolowitz (Simon Helberg). Leonard reluctantly agrees to let Penny join the gang for their annual trip to Comic-Con next summer, on THE BIG BANG THEORY, Thursday, Feb. 23 (8:00-8:31 PM, ET/PT), on the CBS Television Network. (Photo by Monty Brinton/CBS via Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 18: Melissa Rauch poses at the People's Choice Awards 2017 at Microsoft Theater on January 18, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Steve Granitz/WireImage)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 18: Melissa Rauch and Mayim Bialik attend the People's Choice Awards 2017 - Press Room at Microsoft Theater on January 18, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by David Crotty/Patrick McMullan via Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - NOVEMBER 16: Melissa Rauch attends SAG-AFTRA Foundation's Conversations for 'The Bronze' at SAG Foundation Actors Center on November 16, 2016 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Tibrina Hobson/Getty Images)
Actress Melissa Rauch poses in the press room at the People's Choice Awards 2017 at Microsoft Theatre in Los Angeles, California, on January 18, 2017. / AFP / Tommaso Boddi (Photo credit should read TOMMASO BODDI/AFP/Getty Images)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - MAY 10: Actress Melissa Rauch attends the premiere of 'The Nice Guys' at TCL Chinese Theatre on May 10, 2016 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JANUARY 18: (L-R) Actresses Mayim Bialik, Melissa Rauch, and Kaley Cuoco accept the Favorite Network TV Comedy award for 'The Big Bang Theory' onstage during the People's Choice Awards 2017 at Microsoft Theater on January 18, 2017 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Christopher Polk/Getty Images for People's Choice Awards)
Actress Melissa Rauch attends the reveal of Miss Golden Globe 2017 during the celebration of the 2017 Golden Globe Award season by The Hollywood Foreign Press Association (HFPA) and InStyle, in West Hollywood, California, on November 10, 2016. / AFP / VALERIE MACON (Photo credit should read VALERIE MACON/AFP/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MARCH 18: Actress Melissa Rauch visits the SiriusXM Studio on March 18, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Ilya S. Savenok/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NEW YORK - MARCH 17: Writer Winston Rauch and actor Melissa Rauch attend the After Party for a screening of Sony Pictures Classics' 'The Bronze' hosted by the Cinema Society & SELF at The Jimmy at the James Hotel on March 17, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images,)
LOS ANGELES - APRIL 19: 'The Line Substitution Solution' -- Pictured: Bernadette (Melissa Rauch) and Penny (Kaley Cuoco). Sheldon hires Stuart to spend the day with Amy when he'd rather go to a movie screening. Also, Leonard's mother, Beverly (Christine Baranski), comes to town and Penny struggles to make a connection with her, on THE BIG BANG THEORY, Thursday, May 5 (8:00-8:31, ET/PT) on the CBS Television Network. (Photo by Michael Yarish/CBS via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MARCH 17: Actress Melissa Rauch discusses the new film 'The Bronze' during AOL Build at AOL Studios In New York on March 17, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Desiree Navarro/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - MARCH 17: Actor Sebastian Stan and Melissa Rauch discuss the new film 'The Bronze�at AOL Studios in New York on March 17, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Mireya Acierto/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NEW YORK - MARCH 17: Actor Melissa Rauch attends a screening of Sony Pictures Classics' 'The Bronze' hosted by Cinema Society & SELF at Metrograph on March 17, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images,)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - MARCH 09: Actress Melissa Rauch attends the 24th and final 'A Night at Sardi's' to benefit the Alzheimer's Association at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on March 9, 2016 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Frederick M. Brown/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - MARCH 17: Actress Melissa Rauch visits AOL Studios in New York on March 17, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Mireya Acierto/FilmMagic)
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Rauch then closes out the story by reaching out to others who have felt the same pain.

"All I really know for sure is that this experience has changed me forever. I know it's made me grateful for every moment of my current pregnancy, and I hope it will make me a better mother in some capacity when I can finally hold the child that has been in my heart in my arms," she writes. "To all the women out there who are dealing with fertility issues, have gone through a miscarriage or are going through the pain of it currently, allow me to leave you with this message: You are not alone. And, it is perfectly OK to not be OK right now.

Read the entire brave essay here.

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