Mariah Carey opens up about disastrous New Year's Eve performance: 'I blame everybody'


Mariah Carey is ready to talk about her infamous New Year's Eve performance.

The 46-year-old songstress suffered a slew of technical difficulties during her cringeworthy performance on "Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin' Eve with Ryan Seacrest" -- and now she's setting the record straight nearly two months after the disaster.

"This was out of my control, and had everything not been such a total chaotic mess, then I would have been able to make something happen. Even the dancers should have stopped dancing and helped me off the f--king stage. I'm sorry. It was a mess, and I blame everybody, and I blame myself for not leaving after rehearsal," the singer said in a new interview with Rolling Stone.

The singer and her team later pointed the finger at Dick Clark Productions, claiming they sabotaged her to boost ratings. The production company hit back, saying the accusation was, "defamatory, outrageous and frankly absurd."

Carey fired her creative director Anthony Burrell, with whom she worked with for many years, shortly after the fiasco.

"He's not being brought back [in 2017] for a number of reasons," a source close to Carey said at the time. Burrell reportedly made a decision involving her backup dancers that contributed to the disastrous performance.

And while Carey is trying to put the humiliating situation past her, she still has no explanation for how and why it all went wrong on the stage.

"It's just something where if I can't explain it to the entire world, then they're not going to understand it, because it's not what they do," Carey said. "Just like I wouldn't understand somebody who had a desk job and how to do that. I couldn't. I literally am incapable of being in the real world and surviving."

Just a month after the humiliating incident, Mariah redeemed herself during an appearance on "Jimmy Kimmel Live." She flawlessly performed her new hit "I Don't," which was inspired by her split from fiancé James Packer last fall.

She also gushed about her new boyfriend Brian Tanaka. Though viewers can watch their romance blossom on her E! docuseries "Mariah's World," she still wants to keep parts of her relationship under wraps.

"I don't think we're being public in a way that my relationships have been public before. I really don't. To me, the best thing of this is to keep it a little more private. But I'm not going to not go places with him and enjoy our lives because everybody thinks, 'Oh, it's too soon!' kind of thing," Carey revealed.

"We all saw the freakin' show. This is not a surprise."