"Law & Order: Special Victims Unit" actress Stephanie March has opened up about her "wrong decision" to get breast augmentation surgery in 2014, revealing a number of health scares that followed the procedure.
"I now know that my decision to have a breast augmentation in 2014 was the wrong decision, for so many reasons," she wrote in a Refinery29 essay. "I was 39 years old, and my life was disintegrating. Couldn't get a job I wanted on camera, couldn't get attention for my production projects, couldn't travel the world far enough or fast enough or immerse myself in philanthropy enough to make it all go away ... The other thing that was happening was that my marriage of nearly 10 years (and 14 together) was falling apart. And nothing, nothing was helping me cope."
Adding that she couldn't fix her life, she decided to "try one last thing" — plastic surgery.
"I decided to change my body because I couldn't change my life," she wrote. "In retrospect, there were signals that this might not be the right path for me. Every implant I tried on seemed alien, too large. I didn't feel ready to throw away my pretty bras. I worried that I'd look top-heavy. But I ignored the signs and soldiered on."
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NEW YORK, NY - MAY 10: Actress Stephanie March attends 2016 Joyful Revolution Gala on May 10, 2016 in New York, New York. (Photo by Desiree Navarro/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 22: Actress Stephanie March arrives at the 'Knight of Cups' New York screening held at Metrograph on February 22, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Rob Kim/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 20: Actress Stephanie March attends the Citymeals-On-Wheels Power Lunch for Women held at The Plaza Hotel on November 20, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Brent N. Clarke/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 17: Actress Stephanie March attends the 3rd Annual Save The Children Illumination Gala at The Plaza Hotel on November 17, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Mike Pont/WireImage)
Actress Stephanie March enters Manhattan Supreme Court on Thursday, June 11, 2015. She is involved in a divorce proceeding with the celebrity chef Bobby Flay. (Photo by Jefferson Siegel/New York Daily News)
NEW YORK, NY - OCTOBER 09: Actress Stephanie March attends the Robot Chicken / Neon Joe and Werewolf Hunter Adult Swim Press Hour at New York Comic Con 2015 at the Jacob Javitz Center on October 9, 2015 in New York, United States. 25749_001 118.JPG (Photo by Paul Zimmerman/Getty Images For Turner)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - APRIL 30: Actress Stephanie March arrives at the World Of Children Award 2015 Alumni Honors event at Il Cielo on April 30, 2015 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Amanda Edwards/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - APRIL 30: Stephanie March, WOCA Celebrity Ambassador and actress (L) and Kay Isaacson-Leibowitz, Co-Founder & Co-Chair, World of Children Award attend the World of Children Award 2015 Alumni Honors at Il Cielo on April 30, 2015 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Angela Weiss/Getty Images for World of Children Award)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 12: Actress Stephanie March attends the A Dolly Good Xmas at Cedar Lake on December 12, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by John Lamparski/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 02: Actress Stephanie March attends L'Oreal Paris' Ninth Annual Women Of Worth Awards at The Pierre Hotel on December 2, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Gary Gershoff/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 12: Actress Stephanie March attends 'Rosewater' New York Premiere at AMC Lincoln Square Theater on November 12, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Desiree Navarro/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 06: Actress Stephanie March attends 2014 World Of Children Awards at 583 Park Avenue on November 6, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Robin Marchant/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - SEPTEMBER 03: Actress Stephanie March at the Premiere of Park Hyatt New York on September 3, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Eugene Gologursky/Getty Images for Park Hyatt)
NEW YORK, NY - JUNE 16: Actress Stephanie March attends the Yves Saint Laurent Couture Palette & The Cinema Society premiere of The Weinstein Company's 'Yves Saint Laurent' at Museum of Modern Art on June 16, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Jim Spellman/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 29: Actress Stephanie March attends Sprint Sound Sessions at Webster Hall on April 29, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Craig Barritt/Getty Images for Sprint)
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She got the surgery, but one day in October woke up with an infected implant. After being shot up with antibiotics, she decided to put the implant back in, which also became infected and ruptured on Christmas Eve.
"The problem wasn't something anyone could have prevented or predicted — it was that I am allergic to implants," she explained. "Plain and simple. My body did. Not. Want. Them. I kept trying to 'fix' my body, and it kept telling me to leave it alone."
Since the surgery, March says her life has turned around for the better. She has expanded her business, moved into a new apartment, traveled and even had a new person see her breasts.
"But finally, once and for all, this isn't about what anyone else thinks," she concluded. "It really does not matter anymore. I have accepted this episode as a part of my larger story. And I refuse to be ashamed of it. I am taking back my body, my story, and myself in a bathing suit. Today, the scars are fading into fine white lines. My breasts are small, well proportioned, and just right for my body. Every day, the evidence of all that happened fades a little more, and my year of living terribly recedes into memory."