Chris Brown gets emotional in new documentary trailer, talks assault on Rihanna: 'I felt like a f**king monster'

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Chris Brown Tears Up Over Rihanna in New Documentary, 'Welcome to My Life'

Chris Brown gets pretty candid with his fans in the new documentary, Welcome to My Life.

In 2009, Brown was arrested in a domestic violence case, and subsequently charged with felony assault, after attacking his then-girlfriend Rihanna the night prior the GRAMMY Awards. Brown pled guilty, completed the court-mandated community service and was let off probation.

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"I felt like a f**king monster," Brown recalls, getting choked up as he speaks of his assault on Rihanna. The 26-year-old singer says he went from "America's Sweetheart to public enemy number one."

"That was the worst day of my life and probably his life," Brown's mother, Joyce Hawkins, adds. "I felt like I was going to lose my child."

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The R&B artist says he contemplated ending his own life. "I was thinking about suicide and everything else," he admits. "I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't eating. I just was getting high."

In addition to Brown's recollection of his troubled past, a number of musicians -- including Jennifer Lopez, Usher, Jamie Foxx, Rita Ora and DJ Khaled -- talk about the "Forever" singer's potential. "He definitely has his finger on the pulse of the sound," Lopez says.

DJ Khaled adds, "I knew he was going to be the next superstar the day I met him."

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Brown is adamant that he's not ready to give up on his love of music. "If there was ever a doubt in your mind that Chris Brown was done, he was finished, I wouldn't bet on it," he insists.

Welcome to My Life has yet to get a release date.

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NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 21: (L-R) Trey Songz and Chris Brown attend the Trey Songz event at Liberty Theater on February 21, 2015, in New York City. (Photo by Johnny Nunez/WireImage)
WASHINGTON, DC - February 22, 2015 - Chris Brown performs at the Verizon Center in Washington, D.C. as part of the Between The Sheets Tour with Trey Songz. Brown's latest album, Fan of a Fan: The Album, a collaboration with rapper Tyga, hits stores on Tuesday. (Photo by Kyle Gustafson / For The Washington Post via Getty Images)
WASHINGTON, DC - February 22, 2015 - Chris Brown performs at the Verizon Center in Washington, D.C. as part of the Between The Sheets Tour with Trey Songz. Brown's latest album, Fan of a Fan: The Album, a collaboration with rapper Tyga, hits stores on Tuesday. (Photo by Kyle Gustafson / For The Washington Post via Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 17: Chris Brown (R) and Karrueche Tran are seen during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 at Lincoln Center for the Performing Arts on February 17, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Gustavo Caballero/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 17: (L-R) Christina Milian, Karrueche Tran, and Chris Brown attend the Michael Costello fashion show during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 at The Salon at Lincoln Center on February 17, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Noam Galai/Getty Images for Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 17: Chris Brown attends the Michael Costello fashion show during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 at The Salon at Lincoln Center on February 17, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/Getty Images for Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week)
INGLEWOOD, CA - AUGUST 24: Singer Chris Brown arrives at the 2014 MTV Video Music Awards at The Forum on August 24, 2014 in Inglewood, California. (Photo by Gregg DeGuire/WireImage)
INGLEWOOD, CA - AUGUST 24: Singer Chris Brown attends the 2014 MTV Video Music Awards at The Forum on August 24, 2014 in Inglewood, California. (Photo by Jason Merritt/Getty Images for MTV)
NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 21: Singer Rihanna (L) and rapper Chris Brown attend the 2014 Summer Classic Charity Basketball Game at Barclays Center on August 21, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Michael Stewart/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 21: Rapper Chris Brown (L) and singer Rihanna attend the 2014 Summer Classic Charity Basketball Game at Barclays Center on August 21, 2014 in New York City. (Photo by Michael Stewart/WireImage)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 29: Singer Chris Brown performs onstage during the BET AWARDS '14 at Nokia Theatre L.A. LIVE on June 29, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 29: Singers Chris Brown (L) and August Alsina pose backstage at the BET AWARDS '14 at Nokia Theatre L.A. LIVE on June 29, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/BET/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 29: Singer Chris Brown attends the BET AWARDS '14 at Nokia Theatre L.A. LIVE on June 29, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/BET/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 29: Singer Chris Brown performs onstage during the BET AWARDS '14 at Nokia Theatre L.A. LIVE on June 29, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 29: Singer Chris Brown performs onstage during the BET AWARDS '14 at Nokia Theatre L.A. LIVE on June 29, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Johnny Nunez/BET/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 28: Singer Chris Brown attends the Sprite Celebrity Basketball Game during the 2014 BET Experience At L.A. LIVE on June 28, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Noel Vasquez/BET/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 28: Singers Justin Bieber (L) and Chris Brown attend the Sprite Celebrity Basketball Game during the 2014 BET Experience At L.A. LIVE on June 28, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason Kempin/BET/Getty Images for BET)
LOS ANGELES, CA - MAY 9: R&B singer Chris Brown (L) appears in court for a probation violation hearing with his attorney Mark Geragos (R) in Los Angeles Court on May 9, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. Chris Brown was sentenced to an additional year in jail, serving another 131 days after credit for days already served. (Photo by Paul Buck-Pool/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - DECEMBER 22: Singer Chris Brown (R) and comedian Kevin Hart attend the 1st Annual Xmas Toy Drive hosted by Chris Brown and Brooklyn Projects on December 22, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Imeh Akpanudosen/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - DECEMBER 22: Singer Chris Brown attends the 1st Annual Xmas Toy Drive hosted by himself and Brooklyn Projects on December 22, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Imeh Akpanudosen/Getty Images)
WASHINGTON, DC - OCTOBER 26: Hip-hop singer/rapper August Alsina attends the Chris Brown Event during Howard University Homecoming 2013 at The Park at Fourteenth on October 26, 2013 in Washington, DC. (Photo by Charles Norfleet/Getty Images)
ATLANTIC CITY, NJ - OCTOBER 25: Chris Brown performs at The Pool After Dark at Harrah's Resort on Friday October 25, 2013 in Atlantic City, New Jersey. (Photo by Tom Briglia/FilmMagic)
LAS VEGAS, NV - SEPTEMBER 20: Singer Chris Brown performs during the iHeartRadio Music Festival at the MGM Grand Garden Arena on September 20, 2013 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images for Clear Channel)
LAS VEGAS, NV - SEPTEMBER 20: Singer Chris Brown performs during the iHeartRadio Music Festival at the MGM Grand Garden Arena on September 20, 2013 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images for Clear Channel)
LAS VEGAS, NV - SEPTEMBER 20: Singer Chris Brown performs onstage during the iHeartRadio Music Festival at the MGM Grand Garden Arena on September 20, 2013 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by Christopher Polk/Getty Images for Clear Channel)
LOS ANGELES, CA - SEPTEMBER 14: Singer Chris Brown performs onstage during Calibash 2013 at Staples Center on September 14, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Imeh Akpanudosen/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - FEBRUARY 10: Chris Brown and Rihanna attend the 55th Annual GRAMMY Awards at STAPLES Center on February 10, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Christopher Polk/Getty Images for NARAS)
LOS ANGELES, CA - NOVEMBER 01: R&B singer Chris Brown leaves the Criminal Court on November 1, 2012 in Los Angeles, California. Brown pleaded guilty to assaulting his then-girlfriend, singer Rihanna, after a pre-Grammy Awards party in 2009. (Photo by Valerie Macon/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 17: Karrueche Tran (L) and Chris Brown attends the Michael Costello fashion show during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 at The Salon at Lincoln Center on February 17, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Noam Galai/Getty Images for Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week)
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In 2014, Brown opened up to ET's Kevin Frazier, saying he'd forgiven himself for past transgressions. "You can't beat yourself up over the years," he said. "Because it'll just eat at you and you'll be stuck in the past. And for me, I just learned to be a more humble individual and more of a conscious person."

As for where he sees himself in the future, Brown told ET at the time that he wants to be "on top" and "higher than the clouds."

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