Woman happier than ever after fulfilling lifelong dream of being blind

I Made Myself Blind: Living With BIID
I Made Myself Blind: Living With BIID

Jewel Shuping says she is happier than ever after becoming blind. The North Carolina woman told Barcroft TV that becoming blind has always been a lifelong wish of hers and she is happy she has now fulfilled it.

According to Barcroft TV, the 30-year-old suffers from Body Integrity Identity Disorder. BIID is a condition where able-bodied sufferers believe they are meant to be disabled.

Shuping's obsession with being blind began when she was a child.

"By the time I was six I remember that thinking about being blind made me feel comfortable," she told Barcroft TV.

She soon began wearing thick, black sunglasses as a teenager. When Shuping was 18, she purchased her first cane. By 20, the North Carolina woman was already fluent in braille.

She said she was 'blind-simming':

"[I was] pretending to be blind, but the idea kept coming up in my head and by the time I was 21, it was a non-stop alarm that was going off."

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At 26, Shuping found a psychologist who was willing to help her fulfill her dream. She claimed the doctor put numbing drops in her eyes followed by drops of drain cleaner.

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The 30-year-old said the blindness didn't kick in overnight.

"When I woke up the following day I was joyful, until I turned on to my back and opened my eyes – I was so enraged when I saw the TV screen," she told Barcroft TV.

It wasn't until over a year later that it took full effect. One of Shuping's eyes had to be removed, the other one suffered from glaucoma and cataracts.

The woman originally told her family it was an accident. But since learning the truth, Shuping says her mother and sister have cut off all contact with her.

But the North Carolina woman said she has no regrets about her decision. She told Barcroft TV that she even hopes to help other blind people live independent lives.

"When there's nobody around you who feels the same way, you start to think that you're crazy. But I don't think I'm crazy, I just have a disorder," she said.

Shuping hopes her story raises public awareness of BIID. She encourages people who suffer from BIID to seek professional help.

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