Kid Cudi checks into rehab: 'There's a ragin' violent storm inside of my heart'

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Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab citing depression and suicidal urges.

The hip-hop star shared the troubling news with a confessional message posted Tuesday night to his Facebook page. Cudi repeatedly apologized as he admitted hiding his demons from the wider world for too long.

"I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me," he revealed to his 10 million-plus followers. "If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin' violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling."

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NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 18: Kid Cudi attends 'Vincent N Roxxy' Premiere during the 2016 Tribeca Film Festival at Chelsea Bow Tie Cinemas on April 18, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Roy Rochlin/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - APRIL 18: Kid Cudi attends 'Vincent N Roxxy' Premiere during the 2016 Tribeca Film Festival at Chelsea Bow Tie Cinemas on April 18, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Roy Rochlin/FilmMagic)
LONDON, ENGLAND - JANUARY 09: Kid Cudi attends COACH Men's Fall/Winter 2016 Party, hosted by Stuart Vevers, at The Lady Ottoline on January 9, 2016 in London, England. (Photo by David M. Benett/Dave Benett/Getty Images for Coach)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 16: Recording Artist Kid Cudi attends the LTC Artist Showcase And Behcca Kay Christmas Party at Highline Ballroom on December 16, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Steve Mack/Getty Images)
NEW YORK, NY - NOVEMBER 11: (L-R) Actor/recording artist Kid Cudi and director Josh Mond speak at the 'James White' New York Screening at IFP Made in NY Media Center on November 11, 2015 in Brooklyn, New York. (Photo by Johnny Nunez/Getty Images)
CHICAGO, IL - AUGUST 01: Kid Cudi performs on stage during Lollapalooza 2015 at Grant Park on August 1, 2015 in Chicago, United States. (Photo by Daniel Boczarski/Redferns)
PARK CITY, UT - JANUARY 24: Scott 'Kid Cudi' Mescudi attends The Variety Studio At Sundance Presented By Dockers - Day 1 on January 24, 2015 in Park City, Utah. (Photo by Joe Scarnici/Getty Images for Variety)
WESTWOOD, CA - JUNE 01: Kid Cudi arrives at the 'Entourage' - Los Angeles Premiere at Regency Village Theatre on June 1, 2015 in Westwood, California. (Photo by Steve Granitz/WireImage)
LOS ANGELES - OCTOBER 6: 'Risky Business' -- Team Scorpion enlists the help of a musician who created a controversial algorithm that generates hit songs to help find the murderer of a music blogger. Meanwhile, Drew asks Walter to help him connect with his son, on SCORPION, Monday, Nov. 10 (9:00-9:59 PM, ET/PT), on the CBS Television Network. Scott Mescudi, a.k.a. Kid Cudi, guest stars as the gifted musician and Cliff 'Method Man' Smith guest stars as a top music executive. (Photo by Neil Jacobs/CBS via Getty Images)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - SEPTEMBER 16: Actor/recording artist Scott Mescudi aka Kid Cudi attends the premiere of eONE Films' 'Two Night Stand' at the TCL Chinese 6 Theatres on September 16, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by David Livingston/Getty Images)
PARIS, FRANCE - JUNE 29: Kid Cudi attends the Lanvin show as part of the Paris Fashion Week Menswear Spring/Summer 2015 on June 29, 2014 in Paris, France. (Photo by Rindoff/Dufour/Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - DECEMBER 11: Kid Cudi performs at the Coach Backstage Rodeo Drive Store Opening Celebration at the Coach Boutique on December 11, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Amy Graves/WireImage)
PARIS, FRANCE - JUNE 28: Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi a.k.a. Kid Cudi attends the Dior Homme show as part of the Paris Fashion Week Menswear Spring/Summer 2014 on June 28, 2014 in Paris, France. (Photo by Dominique Charriau/WireImage)
INDIO, CA - APRIL 19: Recording artist Kid Cudi performs during the Coachella valley music and arts festival at The Empire Polo Club on April 19, 2014 in Indio, California. (Photo by Chelsea Lauren/WireImage)
INDIO, CA - APRIL 12: Rapper Kid Cudi performs onstage during day 2 of the 2014 Coachella Valley Music & Arts Festival at the Empire Polo Club on April 12, 2014 in Indio, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for Coachella)
LATE NIGHT WITH JIMMY FALLON -- Episode 920 -- Pictured: Music guests Kid Cudi and Big Sean perform with The Roots on Friday, November 1, 2013 -- (Photo by: Lloyd Bishop/NBC/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images)
LOS ANGELES, CA - NOVEMBER 12: Kid Cudi arrives at GQ Celebrates The 2013 'Men Of The Year' at The Wilshire Ebell Theatre on November 12, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jon Kopaloff/FilmMagic)

Kid Cudi Reveals His Struggle With Drugs and Depression: 'I Was Living a Nightmare'

Cudi, who signed off with his birthname Scott Mescudi, says he checked himself in on Monday (Oct. 3) but naturally didn't name the institution. He assured his goal is to "fix me" and his music biz team has his back while he recovers.

It's a worrying turn of events for the artist who has spoken in the past of his struggles with depression and drugs. Cudi had been moving forward with new music, dropping the track "Frequency" early this year and putting his critically panned alt-rock album, 2015's Speedin' Bullet 2 Heaven, in the rearview.

"I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases," he notes. "The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise."

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If all goes well, Cudi adds, he'll be be out in time for the Nov. 5-6 ComplexCon at Long Beach. "Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I'm sorry."

Read his message in full below.

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