Bruce Springsteen gets candid about being 'crushed' by depression

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Bruce Springsteen is opening up about his mental health.

The 66-year-old rocker tells all in his new memoir, Born to Run, out Sept. 27, and is promoting the release with a candid interview in the latest issue of Vanity Fair. In the book, Springsteen opens up about his ongoing battle with clinical depression.

"I was crushed between sixty and sixty-two, good for a year and out again from sixty-three to sixty-four," he writes. "Not a good record."

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Though the musician says he kept it together professionally during that time, recording 2012's Wrecking Ball, life at home was another story.

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UNSPECIFIED - CIRCA 1970: Photo of Bruce Springsteen (Photo by Richard McCaffrey/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
American musician Bruce Springsteen plays at the Trenton War Memorial, Trenton, New Jersey, November 1974. (Photo by Allan Tannenbaum/Getty Images)
American musician Bruce Springsteen plays at the Trenton War Memorial, Trenton, New Jersey, November 1974. (Photo by Allan Tannenbaum/Getty Images)
Singer Bruce Springsteen walking down Sunset Strip with his hands in the pockets of his leather jacket, 1975. He is in Los Angeles to promote his album Born To Run. (Photo by Terry O'Neill/Getty Images)
Bruce Springsteen taking a break from the soundcheck at Alex Cooley's Electric Ballroom ***Exclusive*** (Photo by Tom Hill/WireImage)
Bruce Springsteen is seen in concert in New York's Madison Square Garden, Aug. 21, 1978. (AP Photo/Jim Pozarik)
American musician Bruce Springsteen plays at the Spectrum, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, May 26, 1978. (Photo by Allan Tannenbaum/Getty Images)
Rock and roll musician Bruce Springsteen sings at New York's Madison Square Garden during a concert sponsored by Musicians United for Safe Energy (MUSE), Friday night, Sept. 22, 1979. Proceeds from the benefit are to support development of energy sources other than nuclear power. (AP Photo/Mike Derer)
NEW YORK, NY - CIRCA 1983: Bruce Springsteen circa 1983 in New York City. (Photo by Laura/IMAGES/Getty Images)
American rock singer and songwriter Bruce Springsteen stands onstage, holding an electric guitar at his side during a concert, 1980s. (Photo by Hulton Archive/Getty Images)
**FILE PHOTO**LANDOVER, MD - AUG. 25: Opening night of Bruce Springsteen's four sold-out concerts at the Capital Centre in Landover, MD on Aug. 25, 1984. (Photo by Lucian Perkins/The Washington Post via Getty Images)
Bruce Springsteen, circa 1984 (Photo by SGranitz/WireImage)
10/02/1985: Bruce Springsteen performs during the last show of the 1985 'Born in the U.S.A. Tour'. (Photo by Bob Riha Jr/WireImage)
NEW YORK, NY - CIRCA 1984: Bruce Springsteen circa 1984 in New York City. (Photo by Robin Platzer/Images/Getty Images)
Bruce Springsteen performing at the CNE Stadium in Toronto, Canada on July 24, 1984. (Photo by Ebet Roberts/Redferns)
American Bruce Springsteen performs, on June 29, 1985 in La Courneuve, outside Paris. AFP PHOTO MICHEL GANGNE (Photo credit should read MICHEL GANGNE/AFP/Getty Images)
Rock Star Bruce Springsteen makes an all-out effort during live performance at Ullevi Soccer Stadium in Gothenburg, on Saturday evening, June 9, 1985 where some 64,000 fans enjoyed his music. (AP Photo/Peter Claesson)
Bruce Springsteen, Bruce Springsteen (Photo by Brian Rasic/Getty Images)
Sting, left and Bruce Springsteen meet the press at their arrival to Barcelona's airport, Sept 9. 1988. They will sing tomorrow at the Nou Camp Stadium in front of almost 90,000 persons in the concert "Human Rights Now!" organized by Amnesty International. (AP Photo/Amilcar De Leon)
American Bruce Springsteen performs, on October 10, 1988 during an Amnesty International concert Abidjan. AFP PHOTO (Photo credit should read STRINGER/AFP/Getty Images)
Rock music superstars Sting (L) and Bruce Springsteen perform together, on September 19, 1988 during the finale of the first US leg of the Amnesty International concert at JFK Stadium in Philadelphia. The world wide tour is trying to bring attention to human rights abuses throughoutthe world. AFP PHOTO LUKE FRAZZA (Photo credit should read LUKE FRAZZA/AFP/Getty Images)
Bruce Springsteen holds his Oscar for Best Original Song for "Philadelphia", March 21, 1994 at the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion in Los Angeles. (AP Photo)
LOS ANGELES, CA - MARCH 1: Singer Bruce Springsteen holds his four Grammy awards 01 March 1995 for Song of the Year, Best Male Rock Vocal Performance, Best Rock Song and Best Song Written specifically for a Motion Picture or Tv for his song 'Streets of Philadelphia.' (COLOR KEY: Awards are gold) (Photo credit should read DAN GROSHONG/AFP/Getty Images)
Bob Dylan is joined by Bruce Springsteen, right, during Dylan's set for the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame benefit concert Saturday night, Sept. 2, 1995, in Cleveland. (AP Photo/Tony Dejak)
Bruce Springsteen is shown in the undated photo released Monday, Oct. 16, 1995. (AP Photo/Pam Springsteen/ho)
ADVANCE FOR SUNDAY, NOV. 26--Bruce Springsteen plays solo acoustic guitar during a concert at the State Theater in New Brunswick, N.J., on Nov. 21, 1995, the release day for his new album, "The Ghost of Tom Joad." Springsteen performed selections from the album before an audience of 1,800 to benefit World Hunger Year.(AP Photo/Mike Derer)
Bruce Springsteen smiles outside the Royal Courts of Justice London Thursday, December 10, 1998, after winning a legal battle against the British company, Masquerade Music. The U.S. rock star took legal action against the company, which was trying to release an album of songs he wrote and recorded 26 years ago. (AP Photo/Danielle Smith)
Bruce Springsteen joins Jakob Dylan of the band "The Wallflowers" on stage at the MTV Video Music Awards at New York's Radio City Music Hall Thursday, Sept. 4, 1997. (AP Photo/Adam Nadel)
US rock star Bruce Springsteen performs on stage in the Hallenstadion in Zurich, Switzerland, Monday, April 26, 1999, in front of about 12,000 spectators. (AP Photo/KEYSTONE/Anita Maggi)
Bruce Springsteen performs with E Street band at the MCI Center in Washington, Saturday, Aug. 10, 2002. Springsteen performed songs from his new album "The Rising," which reunites the 52-year-old with the E Street Band and focuses on Sept. 11 and its aftermath. (AP Photo/Ron Edmonds)
Bruce Springsteen, left, sings with Little Steven at the Museum of Natural History in New York, Thursday, August 29, 2002. Springsteen and his E Street band opened the 2002 MTV Video Music Awards show and continued to play for about 90 minutes for the crowd at the museum. (AP Photo/Stephen Chernin)
Bruce Springsteen, left, sings with Steven Van Zandt as they open the first of 10 sold-out shows Tuesday, July 15, 2003, at Giants Stadium in East Rutherford, N.J. (AP Photo/Bill Kostroun)
Democratic Presidential candidate Sen. John Kerry, D-Mass., and Bruce Springsteen greet the crowd at a rally at the Bayfront Park Amphitheater in Miami, Fla. Friday, Oct. 29, 2004. (AP Photo/Gerald Herbert)
Bruce Springsteen performs at a rally for Democratic Presidential candidate Sen. John Kerry, D-Mass., at Ohio State University in Columbus, Ohio Thursday, Oct. 28, 2004. (AP Photo/Gerald Herbert)
** FILE ** Bruce Springsteen performs at a campaign rally for Sen. John Kerry, D-Mass., in a Cleveland file photo from Nov. 1, 2004. (AP Photo/Tony Dejak, File)
Bruce Springsteen performs during the 2006 New Orleans Jazz and Heritage Festival in New Orleans, Sunday, April 30, 2006. (AP Photo/Alex Brandon)
Bruce Springsteen, left, performs with his band on the NBC "Today" television program in New York's Rockefeller Center, Friday Sept. 28, 2007. Other band members are Steven Van Zandt and Patti Scialfa, Springsteen's wife. (AP Photo/Richard Drew)
** FILE ** This is a Sept. 28, 2007 file photo of Bruce Springsteen on the NBC "Today" television program in New York's Rockefeller Center, Springsteen of Freehold, N.J., is among 15 famous New Jerseyans selected as the first inductees to the New Jersey Hall of Fame. (AP Photo/Richard Drew, file)
Bruce Springsteen performs in a concert Sunday night, July 27, 2008, at Giants Stadium in East Rutherford, N.J. (AP Photo/Bill Kostroun)
Bruce Springsteen performs to tens of thousands of people at a free outdoor concert in support of Democratic presidential candidate, Sen. Barack Obama, D-Ill., and in a push for voter registration, in downtown Philadelphia Saturday, Oct. 4, 2008. (AP Photo/Jacqueline Larma)
Before the arrival of Democratic presidential candidate Sen. Barack Obama, D-Ill., and his wife Michelle, Bruce Springsteen performs at an outdoor rally in Cleveland, Ohio on Sunday, Nov. 2, 2008. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta)
Mickey Rourke, left, poses with the actor drama award for âThe Wrestlerâ with Bruce Springsteen and his award for music and lyrics from the film backstage at the 66th Annual Golden Globe Awards on Sunday, Jan. 11, 2009, in Beverly Hills, Calif. (AP Photo/Mark J. Terrill)
Bruce Springsteen, center, performs during the halftime of the NFL Super Bowl XLIII football game between the Arizona Cardinals and the Pittsburgh Steelers, Sunday, Feb. 1, 2009, in Tampa, Fla. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip)
** FILE ** In this Feb. 1, 2009 file photo, Bruce Springsteen, left, and Steven Van Zandt, of Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band, perform at halftime at the NFL Super Bowl XLIII football game between the Arizona Cardinals and Pittsburgh Steelers in Tampa, Fla. (AP Photo/Winslow Townson, file)
US rock star Bruce Springsteen performs on stage at the Stade de Suisse stadium in Berne, Switzerland, Tuesday, June 30, 2009. (AP Photo/Keystone, Peter Klaunzer)
Bruce Springsteen surfs the crowd while performing with the E Street Band, Friday, Nov. 20, 2009, in Baltimore. (AP Photo/Rob Carr)
Kennedy Center honorees Bruce Springsteen, right, Robert De Niro sit in the East Room of the White House in Washington Sunday, Dec. 6, 2009. (AP Photo/Alex Brandon)
Bruce Springsteen performs at the 54th annual Grammy Awards on Sunday, Feb. 12, 2012 in Los Angeles. (AP Photo/Matt Sayles)
Bruce Springsteen, left, performs with Steven Van Zandt during their Wrecking Ball tour at TD Garden in Boston, Monday, March 26, 2012. (AP Photo/Elise Amendola)
Bruce Springsteen performs at Fenway Park in Boston, Tuesday, Aug. 14, 2012. (AP Photo/Michael Dwyer)
Bruce Springsteen and drummer Max Weinberg perform at the Rogers Centre on Friday, August 24, 2012, in Toronto. (Photo by Arthur Mola/Invision/AP)
President Barack Obama, accompanied by singer Bruce Springsteen, waves as he arrive at a campaign event near the State Capitol Building in Madison, Wis., Monday, Nov. 5, 2012. (AP Photo/Pablo Martinez Monsivais)
Honoree Bruce Springsteen is seen at the MusiCares Person of the Year tribute at the Los Angeles Convention Center on Friday Feb. 8, 2013, in Los Angeles. (Photo by Chris Pizzello/Invision/AP)
Bruce Springsteen performs among fans during the Rock in Rio music festival in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, Sunday, Sept. 22, 2013. The week long festival will feature a list of headliners including Muse, Justin Timberlake, Metallica, Bon Jovi, and Bruce Springsteen. (AP Photo/Felipe Dana)
Bruce Springsteen performs during the USC Shoah Foundationâs 20th anniversary Ambassadors for Humanity gala in Los Angeles, Wednesday, May 7, 2014. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh)
Bruce Springsteen and U2 perform during the World AIDS Day (RED) concert In Times Square on Monday, Dec. 1, 2014 in New York. (Photo by Charles Sykes/Invision/AP)
Bruce Springsteen performs at the 9th Annual Stand Up For Heroes event, presented by the New York Comedy Festival and The Bob Woodruff Foundation, at the Theater at Madison Square Garden on Tuesday, Nov. 10, 2015, in New York. (Photo by Greg Allen/Invision/AP)
Bruce Springsteen, center, performs with Patti Scialfa, right, and Stevie Van Zandt and the rest of the East Street Band in the first stop of his River Tour 16 concert on Saturday, Jan. 16, 2016, in Pittsburgh. (AP Photo/Keith Srakocic)
NEW YORK, NY - DECEMBER 17: Bruce Springsteen Visits 'The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon' at Rockefeller Center on November 24, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Theo Wargo/NBC/Getty Images for 'The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon')
Bruce Springsteen & The E Street Band perform in concert, Tuesday, Feb. 23, 2016, in Cleveland. (AP Photo/Tony Dejak)

"Patti [Scialfa, his wife] will observe a freight train bearing down, loaded with nitroglycerin and running quickly out of track," he writes. "She gets me to the doctors and says, 'This man needs a pill.'"

"If I'm being honest, I'm not completely comfortable with that part of the book, but that's OK," Scialfa tells Vanity Fair. "That's Bruce. He approached the book the way he would approach writing a song, and a lot of times, you solve something that you're trying to figure out through the process of writing—you bring something home to yourself. So in that regard, I think it's great for him to write about depression. A lot of his work comes from him trying to overcome that part of himself."

Another topic heavily addressed in the book and article is Springsteen's complicated relationship with his own father, Doug, who suffered from mental illness.

"You don't know the illness's parameters," he tells the reporter. "Can I get sick enough to where I become a lot more like my father than I thought I might?"

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In truly poetic, Springsteen-esque fashion, he explains why the painful topic was so important to include in his book.

"One of the points I'm making in the book is that, whoever you've been and wherever you've been, it never leaves you," he says. "I always picture it as a car. All your selves are in it. And a new self can get in, but the old selves can't ever get out. The important thing is, who's got their hands on the wheel at any given moment?"

"I knew I was gonna 'go there' in the book," he adds. "I had to find the roots of my own troubles and issues -- and the joyful things that have allowed me to put on the kind of shows that we put on."

Springsteen called touring his "trustiest form of self-medication" (the statement was made "half in jest," Vanity Fair notes) and mused about the lasting impact of his song, "Born to Run," for which he named his book.

"A good song gathers the years in," he says. "It's why you can sing it with such conviction 40 years after it's been written. A good song takes on more meaning as the years pass by."

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