Sandra Bullock's ex-husband, Jesse James: 'Losing my son' was the hardest part of the split

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Sandra Bullock's Ex Jesse James Opens Up About Their Split

It's been five years since Sandra Bullock filed for divorce from her ex-husband, Jesse James, and now the former Monster Garage star is opening up about their highly publicized split.

The 46-year-old reality star split with Bullock in April 2010, after several women claimed to have affairs with him while he was still married to the 51-year-old Oscar winner. James issued a public apology to Bullock at the time, stating, "There is only one person to blame for this whole situation, and that is me. It's because of my poor judgment that I deserve everything bad that is coming my way."

James now says the hardest part of the divorce was losing his relationship with Bullock's now 5-year-old son, Louis, whom the two had initially adopted together in January 2010.

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NEW YORK - OCTOBER 29: Sandra Bullock seen out in Manhattan on October 29, 2015 in New York, New York. (Photo by Josiah Kamau/BuzzFoto via Getty Images)
FILE - In this Oct. 21, 2013 file photo, Sandra Bullock arrives at the 17th Annual Hollywood Film Awards Gala at the Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills, Calif. Bullock was nominated for an Academy Award for best actress on Thursday, Jan. 16, 2014, for her role in "Gravity." The 86th Academy Awards will be held on March 2. (Photo by John Shearer/Invision/AP, file)
LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 07: Sandra Bullock onstage during Spike TV's 'Guys Choice' Awards held at Sony Studios on June 7, 2014 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Michael Tran/FilmMagic)
CULVER CITY, CA - JUNE 07: Model Camila Alves (L) and actress Sandra Bullock attend Spike TV's 'Guys Choice 2014' at Sony Pictures Studios on June 7, 2014 in Culver City, California. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/Getty Images for Spike TV)
VENICE, ITALY - AUGUST 27: Actress Sandra Bullock (R) and son Louis Bardo Bullock is seen during the 70th Venice International Film Festival on August 27, 2013 in Venice, Italy. (Photo by Jacopo Raule/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK - NOVEMBER 06: Actress Sandra Bullock and son Louis Bullock are seen on the streets of Manhattan on November 6, 2010 in New York City. (Photo by Marcel Thomas/FilmMagic)
FILE - Sandra Bullock, arrives at the 82nd Academy Awards in this March 7, 2010 file photo taken in the Hollywood section of Los Angeles. In a story posted Wednesday April 28, 2010 on People magazine's website, Sandra Bullock says she has filed for divorce from her husband, Jesse James. The Oscar-winning actress also reveals that she is adopting 3 1/2-month-old boy, Louis Bardo Bullock as a single parent. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta, File)
Sandra Bullock poses for photographers as she arrives at the premiere of her new film, "Two Weeks Notice" in New York Thursday, Dec. 12, 2002. (AP Photo/Louis Lanzano)
Sandra Bullock arrives at the 19th annual Critics' Choice Movie Awards at the Barker Hangar on Thursday, Jan. 16, 2014, in Santa Monica, Calif. (Photo by Matt Sayles/Invision/AP)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - MARCH 02: Actress Sandra Bullock attends the 86th Oscars held at Hollywood & Highland Center on March 2, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Jeff Vespa/WireImage)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - MARCH 02: Sandra Bullock attends the Oscars held at Hollywood & Highland Center on March 2, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Jason Merritt/Getty Images)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - MARCH 02: Actress Sandra Bullock attends the Oscars held at Hollywood & Highland Center on March 2, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Kevork Djansezian/Getty Images)
BEVERLY HILLS, CA - FEBRUARY 10: Actress Sandra Bullock attends the 86th Academy Awards nominee luncheon at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on February 10, 2014 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images)
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FILE -In this Sunday, March 2, 2014 photo, Sandra Bullock arrives at the Oscars at the Dolby Theatre, in Los Angeles. Bullock’s encounter with a stalker in her home reads like a scene from a scary movie in newly released documents, painting a portrait of an obsessed fan who described himself as her “husband.” Bullock, who has portrayed brave, strong women on screen, took quick action, locking the door and summoning police. (Photo by Chris Pizzello/Invision/AP, file)
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FILE - In this June 5, 2014 file photo, Sandra Bullock speaks at the 42nd AFI Lifetime Achievement Award Tribute Gala in Los Angeles. A preliminary hearing for a man accused of breaking into Sandra Bullock’s home has begun with the recording of a 911 call of the panicked actress reporting the man was in her home. Bullock is heard telling police that she is hiding in the closet of her Los Angeles home after seeing the man inside her home. The recording was played in court Thursday, April 9, 2015. (Photo by John ShearerInvision/AP, File)
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CULVER CITY, CA - JUNE 07: (L-R) Actors Keanu Reeves, Hugh Grant, Sandra Bullock and Matthew McConaughey attend Spike TV's 'Guys Choice 2014' at Sony Pictures Studios on June 7, 2014 in Culver City, California. (Photo by Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic for Spike TV)
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CULVER CITY, CA - JUNE 07: Model Camila Alves (L) and actress Sandra Bullock attend Spike TV's 'Guys Choice 2014' at Sony Pictures Studios on June 7, 2014 in Culver City, California. (Photo by Frazer Harrison/Getty Images for Spike TV)
CULVER CITY, CA - JUNE 07: Actress Sandra Bullock accepts the award for 'Decade of Hotness' onstage during Spike TV's 'Guys Choice 2014' at Sony Pictures Studios on June 7, 2014 in Culver City, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for Spike TV)
HOLLYWOOD, CA - JUNE 06: Actress Sandra Bullock (L) and tv personality Chelsea Handler attend the 2014 AFI Life Achievement Award: A Tribute to Jane Fonda at the Dolby Theatre on June 5, 2014 in Hollywood, California. Tribute show airing Saturday, June 14, 2014 at 9pm ET/PT on TNT. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/WireImage)
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"I think losing my son that I adopted, for sure -- not being able to see him and see him grow up and all that stuff," James candidly says during his upcoming appearance on Yahoo Sports' In Depth with Graham Bensinger. "Whether that's fair, whether I should've lost a kid due to infidelity -- which I don't think anybody ever does -- but I think with 'Hollywood law,' that's totally fair."

"I made mistakes and did stuff that I shouldn't have," he further admits. "I handled the situation not the way I should have, and you know what? I got divorced and lost a kid I adopted because of it."

Aside from losing Louis, James says dealing with constant paparazzi at the time was also very difficult.

"It got pretty bad. I beat the s**t out of a bunch of them," he claims. "Just wait till the night when they didn't see me coming or run their cars off the road. You know, it's fair game. They're trying to make my life miserable and make money off of it, so, I should be entitled to do the same. You just gotta be sneaky about it so you don't get sued."

Looking back, he says he accepts total responsibility for his tarnished reputation, yet still has hard feelings towards his ex-wife when it comes to allegations that he's a racist. Shortly after the cheating scandal, a photo surfaced of him in Nazi regalia.

"The photo shocked me and made me sad. This is not the man I married," Bullock told People about the photo in April 2010. "This was stupid, this was ignorant. Racism, anti-Semitism, sexism, homophobia, anything Nazi and a boatload of other things have no place in my life. And the man I married felt the same."

James says the actress didn't defend him enough.

"I think the adultery part was totally fair 'cause I made big mistakes and did stuff I shouldn't have, and so I deserved what I had coming -- I think the whole Nazi part of it wasn't fair, and I think it was fueled by her and her publicist," he says. "They could've, like -- they knew that stuff wasn't true ... her exact quote to Us magazine was, 'That's not the man I married,' so I'm like, 'oh God.' Just like, poured gasoline and made it erupt."

"That stuff kinda hurts me because man, I grew up in an all-black neighborhood and like, we adopted a black son," he laughs. "And not because he was black -- my requirement for the adoption was like, hey, I want the kid that needs us the most."

Bullock herself has remained tight-lipped about their split, except to say that she's clearly moved on. "We're all where we're supposed to be," Bullock told Vogue in September 2013. "I am exactly where I want to be now. You can't go backward. I'm not going backward. I'm grateful that I'm here, blessed to have what I have. Nobody can be prepared for anything. If you end up in a place where you can look back and go, 'It happened, but I'm so lucky to be sitting where I am sitting .... '"

She also obviously has an amazing relationship with her son. "Louis has no idea that I'm in this film," Bullock told ET about her adorable son at the Minions premiere in June, adding that she was first introduced to the popular animated characters by him. "He won't put two and two together -- at least not anytime soon. If he does, I'll be shocked. The kid surprises me all the time."

These days, the actress is reportedly dating 49-year-old model and photographer Bryan Randall. The two were spotted on a double date with Jennifer Aniston and Justin Theroux, having dinner at Bullock's Bess Bistro in Austin, Texas on Sept. 5.

Still, she was adorably coy about her reported new relationship when ET caught up with her earlier this month.

"Who says I have a new boyfriend?" she teased ET on the red carpet at the Toronto International Film Festival. "Everything in my life is great right now."

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