Regrets? She's had a few, Lewinsky says of Clinton scandal
Monica Lewinsky Embraces President Bill Clinton At A Democratic Fundraiser in Washington D.C. on 10/23/96. (Photo By Dirck Halstead/Getty Images)
In this image taken from video, Monica Lewinsky (wearing beret) smiles at President Clinton as he greets well-wishers at a White House lawn party in Washington Nov. 6, 1996. Lewinsky offered Friday, Jan. 23, 1998, to reverse her official story and acknowledge to prosecutors that she had sexual relations with President Clinton in exchange for immunity, according to a source. (AP Photo/APTV)
Official White House photo taken Nov. 17, 1995 from page 3179 of Independent Counsel Kenneth Starr's report on President Clinton, showing President Clinton and Monica Lewinsky at the White House. Congress laid before a wary nation Monday the raw footage of the presidsent's grand jury testimony and 3,183 pages of evidence chronicling his relationship with Monica Lewinsky in explicit detail. (AP Photo/OIC)
This is an August 10, 1995 photo, taken from the two-volume set of evidence delivered to lawmakers this morning from the office of Independent Counsel Kenneth Starr. The photo shows the president and Monica Lewinsky's family in the Oval Office of the White House. From left are, stepmother Barbara, father Dr. Bernard Lewinsky, the president, brother Michael and Monica Lewinsky. (AP Photo/OIC)
This is a Nov. 17, 1995 White House photo, from page 3183 of Independent Counsel Kenneth Starr's report on President Clinton, showing the president and Monica Lewinsky outside the Oval Office of the White House. Congress laid before a wary nation Monday, Sept. 21, 1998, the raw footage of the presidsent's grand jury testimony and 3,183 pages of evidence chronicling his relationship with Monica Lewinsky in explicit detail. (AP Photo/OIC)
A Dec. 16, 1996 White House photo, taken from the two-volume set of evidence delivered to lawmakers Monday, Sept. 21, 1998, by the office of Independent Counsel Kenneth Starr, shows President Clinton and Monica Lewinsky at a Christmas party. Congress laid before a wary nation Monday the raw footage of the presidsent's grand jury testimony and 3,183 pages of evidence chronicling his relationship with Monica Lewinsky in explicit detail. (AP Photo/OIC)
A photograph showing former White House intern Monica Lewinsky meeting President Bill Clinton at a White House function submitted as evidence in documents by the Starr investigation and released by the House Judicary committee September 21, 1998.
** FILE ** First lady Hillary Rodham Clinton watches President Clinton pause as he thanks those Democratic members of the House of Representatives who voted against impeachment in this Dec. 19, 1998 file photo. Her husband's dalliances with Monica Lewinsky left Americans baffled, and at the same time admiring, that Hillary would stand by her husband. "The most difficult decisions I have made in my life were to stay married to Bill, and to run for the Senate from New York," she said. She decided she wanted the marriage to last, if that was possible. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh, File)
Former White House intern Monica S. Lewinsky is shown in three photos taken from her freshman, sophomore and junior yearbooks at Beverly Hills High School in Beverly Hills, Calif., Wednesday, Jan. 21, 1998. Whitewater prosecutors have expanded their investigation to determine whether President Clinton had an affair with Lewinsky and tried to get her to lie about it in an affidavit she gave in Paula Jones' sexual harassment lawsuit. (AP Photo/HO)
President Clinton is shown in this video image during his grand jury deposition Aug 17, 1998, shown during the House Managers presentation in the Senate impeachment trial of Clinton Saturday, Feb. 6, 1999. Clinton was asked if he instructed presidential secretary Betty Currie to collect gifts he gave to Monica Lewinsky. (AP Photo/APTN)
Former White House intern, Monica Lewinsky, smiles during a photo opportunity in Helsinki, Finland Friday, April 9, 1999. Lewinsky is on a two-day book tour in Helsinki, to sell her new book. (AP Photo/Soile Kallio)
President Clinton ponders a question during his news conference in the East Room of the White House Thursday April 30, 1998. Embattled by controversy from Monica Lewinsky to Whitewater, the president said that "these things are distracting" but promised to work with Republicans who are increasingly attacking his integrity. (AP Photo/Ron Edmonds)
President Clinton, daughter Chelsea and first lady Hillary Rodham Clinton walk with their Labrador "Buddy" to board Marine One on the South Lawn of the White House in Washington, August 18, 1998. The first family will travel to Martha's Vineyard, Mass. for a two week vacation. Late Monday night, the president confessed to a relationship with former White House intern Monica Lewinsky following an afternoon of testimony before the independent counsel's grand jury. (AP Photo/J. Scott Applewhite)
Monica Lewinsky appears on the cover of the Feb. 2, 1998, edition of Newsweek magazine as seen Monday, Jan. 26, 1998. The issue contains exclusive excerpts of tape recordings detailing her alleged affair with President Clinton. (AP Photo)
President Clinton, his daughter Chelsea, center, and wife Hillary Rodham Clinton walk from the White House toward a helicopter as they depart for vacation Tuesday, Aug. 18, 1998. The first family will travel to Martha's Vineyard, Mass. for a two week vacation. Late Monday night, the president confessed to a relationship with former White House intern Monica Lewinsky following an afternoon of testimony before the independent counsel's grand jury. (AP Photo/Roberto Borea)
Linda Tripp meets with reporters outside federal court in Washington Wednesday July 29,1 998 after her final appearence before a grand jury investigating an alleged affair between President Clinton and Monica Lewinsky. From left are, attorney Anthony Zaccagnine, her daughter Allison, spokesman Phil Coughter and attorney Joe Murtha. (AP Photo/Khue Bui)
Linda R. Tripp, a former colleague of former White House aide Monica Lewinsky, and an unidentified woman, right, meet the media outside Tripp's Columbia, Md. home Thursday, Jan. 22, 1998. (AP Photo/Roberto Borea)
Monica Lewinsky leaves Howard County Circuit Court in Ellicott City, Md., Thursday, Dec. 16, 1999. Lewinsky testified that she was frightened when she saw the first published report of her secretly taped conversations with Linda Tripp about President Clinton. (AP Photo/Ron Edmonds)
Monica Lewinsky leaves Howard County Circuit Court in Ellicot City , Md., Thursday, Dec. 16,1999. Lewinsky testified today that she was frightened when she saw the first published report of her secretly taped conversations with Linda Tripp about President Clinton. (AP Photo/Ron Edmonds)
Monica Lewinsky, and her entourage, walks back to a hotel in Washington in this Feb. 2, 1999 file photo. An assortment of controversies were tacked on to the Whitewater controversy, one by one, to the initial probe by Kenneth Starr, a prominent Washington lawyer and a conservative, including President Clinton's alleged perjury and obstruction regarding his relationship with former White House intern Monica Lewinsky. (AP Photo/Greg Gibson, File)
President Clinton bites his lip during a pause in his remarks during an event in the White House Rose Garden Friday, Dec. 11, 1998. The House Judiciary Committee is deciding today whether to impeach the President over the Monica Lewinsky matter. (AP Photo/Greg Gibson)
President Clinton walks to the podium to deliver a short statement on the impeachment inquiry in the Rose Garden of the White House in Washington Friday, Dec. 11, 1998. Nearing a showdown over the fate of his presidency, President Clinton apologized to the country today for his conduct in the Monica Lewinsky affair and said he would accept a congressional censure or rebuke. (AP Photo/J. Scott Applewhite)
Monica Lewinsky, shown in this video image, is sworn in for her deposition on Feb. 1, 1999. The videotape was shown on Saturday, Feb. 6, 1999, as part of the House Managers presentation in the Senate impeachment trial of President Clinton. (AP Photo/APTN)
Monica Lewinsky is shown in this video image pondering a question during her deposition Feb. 1, 1999, shown during the House Managers presentation in the Senate impeachment trial of President Clinton Saturday, Feb. 6, 1999. (AP Photo/APTN)
Monica Lewinsky, whose testimony could define the future course of the Clinton administration , arrives at U. S. Federal court Thursday Aug. 6,1998 in Washington, to testify before the federal grand jury looking into the alleged affair between her and President Clinton. (AP Photo/Roberto Borea)
FILE - In this July 11, 2001, file photo, Monica Lewinsky arrives for a special screening of "The Score" in New York. Lewinsky says there's no question her boss, Bill Clinton, "took advantage" of her when he was president. But if there was any abuse in their affair, she says, it came afterward, when Clinton's inner circle tried to discredit her and his opponents used her as a pawn. The former White House intern, now 40, writes about her life in the next issue of Vanity Fair magazine, out in May 2014. In released excerpts, she says she's perhaps the first Internet scapegoat and wants to speak out on behalf of other victims of online humiliation.(AP Photo/Darla Khazei, File)
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WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Monica Lewinsky, the onetime White House intern whose 1990s affair with Bill Clinton nearly brought down his presidency, broke a long silence on Tuesday, saying she regretted what happened.
Writing in Vanity Fair magazine, Lewinsky, 40, said it was time to stop "tiptoeing around my past -- and other people's futures. I am determined to have a different ending to my story."
Her affair with Clinton was one between consenting adults and the public humiliation she suffered altered the direction of her life, she wrote.
"Any 'abuse' came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position," she said in excerpts of the article published on the magazine's website.
Lewinsky added, "I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton. Let me say it again: I. Myself. Deeply. Regret. What. Happened."
The affair led to Clinton being impeached by the House of Representatives in 1999. The Senate acquitted him and Clinton completed his second term in 2001.
Lewinsky dropped from sight after the scandal. She got a master's degree in social psychology from the London School of Economics and has lived in Los Angeles, New York and Portland, Oregon.
"I turned down offers that would have earned me more than $10 million, because they didn't feel like the right thing to do," she said.
Lewinsky said she was strongly tempted to kill herself several times during the investigations and in one or two periods after.
Her name resurfaced in U.S. political discourse in February, when former first lady and Democratic presidential front-runner Hillary Clinton was quoted as calling her "a narcissistic loony toon" in an article based on the papers of a Clinton friend.
Kentucky Senator Rand Paul, a likely Republican presidential contender, accused Democrats of "hypocrisy" for claiming to back women's rights while giving Bill Clinton a pass for his "predatory" behavior towards Lewinsky.
Spokesmen for the Clintons and the Clinton Foundation in New York had no immediate comment on the article.
Lewinsky said she was motivated to speak out by the 2010 suicide of a Rutgers University student who killed himself after a video of him kissing a man was streamed online.
"I was also possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet," Lewinsky wrote.
Her goal "is to get involved with efforts on behalf of victims of online humiliation and harassment and to start speaking on this topic in public forums."
(Reporting by Ian Simpson; Editing by Leslie Adler)